What does love feel like?

Something that has been stressing me out for a while...

I often feel like im not really a person because i dont really care about anyone. I have no friends and while i still talk to my family, i really dont care if they live or die. My mom knows this too. She told me it scares her that i can look at people with such "dead eyes"

My dog died when i was young, and i wasnt really upset about it. My sister called me a freak because it didnt bother me at all. I pretended that it "hit me late" to get out of a fight with my mom but i was never really sad. This was probably the first time i really realized that i wasnt like other people

I want to know whats is like to be around people without wanting them all to drop dead