crush or fp?

when i was about 14 there was this girl who i absoloutely adored. i relied on her a lot for emotional support but i also really wanted to be around her and hug her and talk to her all the time. when she would say nice things to me or hug me or other things like that everything in the world felt perfect and i felt so happy loved and light. she was a little bit older than me so most of her friends were older but there was this other girl my age who she always talked to more and seemed to like more than me and it would make me quite jealous but i never let it show. i never felt this way about her when she hung out w other friends tho, just when she hung out w the girl my age. when she wouldn't notice me or hung out with the other girl i felt like she hated me and it would destroy me inside and would cry because i wanted to be as close to her as the other girl my age but i just didn't know how to approach her (i'm also autistic so that's why). i hadn't come to terms w my sexuality yet so i never really considered the posibility of this being a crush til recently and looking back and realizing how much i enjoyed physically being close to her, and being called pet names like "love" it does feel more crush like to me. does this sound more like a crush or fp attachment to you guys?