lost (TW)
Hi, I’m new here. I attempted suicide a year ago and since then I haven’t self harmed even though I have intrusive thoughts about death. I’m in college and recently I’ve been failing classes and messing up nearly everything that comes my way. I think I might have a personality disorder but I don’t know for sure. I’m the day ruiner because I ruin people’s day with my instability and recklessness.
[Edited by @QuietMagic 11/20/21 to add TW]
@margo16374858 Hello there! Sounds like you've been dealing with a rough time for a long time and I am so proud of you for reaching out for support. Intrusive thoughts can be very overwhelming and can definitely put someone in a low mood and it's understandable that it could be hard to focus on other things like doing well in classes or even just getting through the day. It takes so much more effort and it can feel like you might be ruining someone's day but I am sure you're not doing anything on purpose and you definitely cannot help with not feeling the best. I wonder if you've considered talking to someone about it? What have you tried so far to cope with the intrusive thoughts and recklessness you've expressed?
