pressure and expectations

im known as the happy active person everywhere i go

which is part of my personality but what really annoys me is that i’ve put so much pressure on myself to look happy and act ok because when i don’t feel well or i’m having a bad day people ask questions and kinda force me to be happy idk how to describe it really

so i’ve learned to hide how i feel and not really show when i’m having a bad day

but it felt like a small weight adding up on my chest and i’ve tried talking to people and telling them how i feel (close friends , family) i just felt guilty after like it wasn’t worth it . and kept thinking how they’d look at me differently..