Help guys please

I am feeling really bad for long. And when someone listens, it doesn't help too. But I'm reaching out anyway, and hopefully, with success one day. It takes me nothing to write this, so why not?

Its just hard for me to be myself in this world. All I see is loud noices, too much talking, screaming and stuff.. I feel so weird that I can't even explain that. I don't understand my generation. I dont belong here. Its so weird. Like their memes, i dont get it at all.. or saying theyre n**gers and stuff.. Those caps lock for no reason, saying amything stupid, like cheese and it still makes sence to them.. no. I do not get it. At all. I've been trough long trauma. I have no idea how do they know what to talk about. And it's complete nonsense what they talk about. Everyone gets along with someone. But me? With no one. I do not even try anymore. Becuase its always the same. Im very different from everyone. I dont like memes. Idk what else to say so thats it. These social media are so draining. Those skibidi things, i hate it too. Why is that?

I really hope you will understand what I mean, and not make fun of it. because no one really does . Please tell me im not alone in this.