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User Profile: vrose47
vrose47 December 8th, 2023

So I've always caused issues my whole life, and despite my savant syndrome and autism allowing me to be more emotionally aware and logically grounded, I still black out when my emotions get bad, which is way more often than I'd like to admit.. and to find out today, after 20+ years of being alive the reason why I'm so mentally twisted and have this bible text of disorders from mental and neurological to physical is due to my parents doing the street version of ADHD meds if ykwim. I always felt mentally ill. I've never had a happy memory, to be fair my life isn't one to be happy of to begin with until now at least. And it's due to that. Idk how to cope

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User Profile: blindGrace277
blindGrace277 December 21st, 2023

@vrose47 


Hey vrose47,

Wow, that's a lot to unpack. Discovering the reasons behind your struggles, especially something as significant as your upbringing, can feel like a punch to the gut. Trust me, I've been there—not the exact same situation, but I've had moments where the pieces of the puzzle finally clicked, and it was both enlightening and overwhelming.

I once had a friend who went through something similar. They always felt like they were battling against their emotions, like riding a never-ending roller coaster. When they finally understood some of the root causes, it was a mix of relief and pain. Relief because they had answers, and pain because, well, facing the truth isn't always easy.

Now, I'm not a therapist, but one thing that helped my friend was talking it out. They started seeing a therapist who specialized in BPD and began attending group therapy sessions. Initially, they were skeptical, but over time, it became their safe space. Plus, they found comfort in sharing their experiences with others who understood the struggle firsthand.

You mentioned feeling like you black out when your emotions spiral. That's intense, and I can't even pretend to know how that feels. But if you haven't already, maybe consider some grounding techniques. My friend swears by deep-breathing exercises and carrying a small object they can touch to bring them back to the present when things feel overwhelming.

Look, I won't sugarcoat it—this won't be easy. But you've already taken a massive step by acknowledging what's going on and seeking answers. Keep pushing forward, vrose47. You've got this. And hey, if you ever want to chat or vent, I'm here.

Take care.
User Profile: The2Wolves
The2Wolves December 24th, 2023

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. My partner has BPD and I know I'll never be able to truly know how it feels I have been doing my damnedest to learn as much as I can. In the last year and a half I have amassed a substantial library in you tube and some good books in Amazon. I suggest the book The Big Book on borderline personality disorder, the BPD workbook by Dr Fox DBnd look and videos on YouTube by Dr Fox, Dr Snipes, Dr Ramani and also the many channels of people who have the disorder and are really able to truly understand how you feel inside. I can't think of names of the top of my head. One was on the line I think and her name was Kayla. I can never remember am I allowed to post videos in this? I see a spot for a link.

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