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so i'll put here all my poems
some of them aren't ready yet but i think this would be a good way to share how i feel and maybe you guys will also like them. hopefully someday they'll become a little poetry book. i mostly write in my mother tongue but also in english
mun rakas s, if you ever happen to read this, know that i still love you and i could write poems about you forever
thank you @Arie3 and @KKNastiaaa for the idea and encouragement
täytä mut toivolla
sytytä mun liekki,
äläkä anna sen sammua enää
i thought of you as my family
i poured all my love into you
i let you so close, i trusted
i spent all my time with you
all my energy on you
i created a future together with you, for us
i was comfortable being my true authentic self around you
i was ready
maybe thats why it cuts so deep
the thought of not having you
not being with you
just walking away, out of sight
you cut deeper than you'd ever guess
really, its still taking me out of breath
the weight falling heavy on me
leaving me speechless
dragging me down, down, down
dont wait
i wont hold space for you forever
i wont give you my absolute everything
only wish you would stay with me
over and over and over again
i wont keep choosing you every time
i wont let my tears fall down
on the pillow that symbolizes you
over and over and over again
still,
i would love you in every moment
i would cherish every single moment we'd have
i would choose you
over and over and over again
i'd be more than happy to have you with me
until the end of time
miks mä oon tällä
miks mun pitäis olla
mitä järkeä
en vittu jaksa
se vaan sattuu
eiks se voi jo loppuu
kipu, vai mikä
eihän sellast ees sais sanoo
ei kirjottaa ei kysyy
hiljene, vaikene vaan
niin se käy helpommin
maybe there was a reason why
i always looked so up on you
while you looked down on me
kuu shining its light
over the dead dark forest
all the millions of shapes
that once were puita, living in harmony
that now are only decaying deadwood
observing silently, embracing every surface
with its pale, eternal, cold yet dear light
maybe thats the beauty in it
to have such an impact, the memory still lingering strong
but never really running into each other
what happened to all the words you said to me
all the promises and dreams yet to happen
i guess forever and always were just empty words
the colors are muted, blurry, nonsense
everything close enough to see
but too far out of reach
slipping away, slowly, painfully
are we really just two parallel lines,
having so much in common
but never meeting
from unconditional
to conditional
under conditions
idk what is this??
why did you let me fall in love
why dont you love me
why do i still love
what is love
what is real
itkua, tärinää, viiltävää kipua
oksentelua, tunteiden kakomista
maataan lattialla tiiviissä kippurassa
halaten omia ruhjeisia polvia
koitetaan tuntea jotain muuta, mitä vaan
rukoillaan kaiken ja minkä tahansa olevan
loppuvan ja lopettavan loputtoman tuskan
