When I was in the thick of it

sometimes when i’m alone 

i think of what would be if i wasn’t here 

just one day up and disappear 

would they even look for me? 

would they even care? 

i wonder who would lie and say they were there 

say they were there when in my times of heart ache i had no one to share 

my inner most feelings with, without judgement or worry that i over shared 

maybe disappear is what i have to do 

so everyone can realize what there missing 

maybe starting a new life under a new name will make me feel better 

but if no one looks for me i’ll feel worse 

- Firefly