Self-Harm Recovery Check-In - Friday, April 23, 2021

Check-In Questions
1) How are you feeling?
2) What is going well for you?
3) What is not going well for you?
4) Would you rather be always cold or always hot?
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@Zammn @zebrasarcastic
) How are you feeling? I'm not sure tbh
2) What is going well for you? plants are growing for the garden
3) What is not going well for you. it snowed the other day and dropped below freezing a few nights - kind of messed up some of the plants
Seriously - this depression has really sunk its teeth in and it's really causing a struggle. Everything is breaking. Equipment and tools. It allready cost a small fortune to fix my truck for inspection. The motor blew in the skidloader and now the mower for the meadow blew up. I haven't worked on anything to sell since September when we found out the dog had cancer. We had to have her put down on Thanksgiving day. 9:30 am. Forever burned into my memory. Two weeks later I upset someone that ment alot to me. A few months later she walked away for good. I don't blame her. It was my doing - she was my best friend - my only friend really. I'm withdrawing more and more from people here - this is about the extent of my socializing. I guess I don't feel I deserve support for anything because I'm not even sure if its ok to feel the way I do lol - I'm keeping everything bottled up because - I'm not really sure tbh. Sorry - went on alittle rant
4) Would you rather be always cold or always hot? hot - I'm cold enough during the winter
@mytwistedsoul Forgot to renew my license too lol - it expired the day after the birthday. Didn't realize it until I had to get something from the pharmacy and they needed id *smh*
@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling?
im feeling okay?
2) What is going well for you?
I'm getting along with this person that I haven't talked in a long time!
3) What is not going well for you?
my family and I are on bad terms
4) Would you rather be always cold or always hot?
always be too cold because 1, I've gotten so used to having jackets and 2, bc I'm insecure of my body
Hello @endyb156
I'm so sorry for the late response <3 I had prom yesterday and didn't have time to come online. I'm glad you were doing okay though! I'm also glad to hear you are getting along with this person. I'm sorry to hear about your relationship with your family <3 Would you like to tell me more about what's going on?
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Hi!
1) A little tired, but otherwise okay.
2) Remembering that I have people who genuinely care about me, who genuinely support me, and who genuinely love me.
3) Asking for help from the aforementioned people, as well as shaking off negative words from people who have been unkind to me.
4) Cold, because at least I can put on more layers regardless of where I am. Besides, it's kind of cozy to have blankets and the like piled up on me.
Thank you for the check-in! I appreciate you. ♥️
Hello @TheAutumnWitch
I'm sorry for the late response! I had prom yesterday and didn't have a chance to come online. I'm glad you are doing okay. I'm glad you have a support system and people who genuinely love/care about you <3 It feels great to know those people are out there :) It sounds like you are having a hard time asking for help. I know exactly how this feels. How would you feel about connecting with a listener to create a plan for asking for help? I would also prefer to be cold so I can layer up.
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
No worries on the late response! Look at me; I'm replying to you a couple of days later. (<_<;;) Oh my goodness, I'm thrilled that you were able to experience prom! I hope you had a fabulous time. <3 Yes, it's good to have people who care about me even if I am still struggling with approaching them for help. Not to worry; I have connected with a listener for this reason and more! <3
Thank you for replying to me! Have a great week!
1. I am feeling, positive 2. Finding this app is cool 3. My mental health is collapsing and I probably need hospitalization soon. 4. Cold...... like my heart lol jk
Hello @anomaly2424
I'm sorry for the late response, I had prom yesterday so I wasn't able to get online. I'm glad you were feeling positive! I'm also glad you found us :) Welcome <3 I've been hospitalized before for mental health reasons. It can be scary to realize you need it and even scarier to be admitted, but it's worth it in the end. If you can afford hospitalization and think you need it, then I highly recommend being admitted. There is nothing wrong with getting help or being hospitalized, and I promise it will be worth it in the end :)
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1.How are u feeling? Pretty sad and anxious 2. What's going well for you? I got zaxbys and had fun with my mom yesterday at the botanical garden 3. What's not going well for you? Even when I wore short sleeves or always used my right arm in front of her, my mom didn't even question the 4 lines on my arm. No one has. Starting to feel like I'm that unnoticable. 4. Would you rather always be hot or always be cold? I'd always rather be cold, because I can bundle up in warm clothing plus got cocoa.
Hello @Sadbunny26
I'm sorry you're feeling sad and anxious <3 I was feeling a bit anxious yesterday too. It sounds like you felt hurt when your mom didn't ask about your scars. I'm sorry <3 I would also feel upset :( I'm glad you had fun at the botanical garden and getting lunch! I would also prefer to be cold for those reasons :D
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1. Numb 2. I have a kitten sitting on my lap 3. I have a hole of emotions that are eating me alive 4. And cold, you can do more things to get warm than to get cool
Hello @UncannyKat
I understand that feeling of numbness. Please know this won't last forever <3 Would you like to tell me more about the emotions eating you? I love cats! What's their name? I agree, there are so many different ways to cope with coldness, but next to none for hotness.
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1) How are you feeling?
Ok, but tired.
2) What is going well for you?
Got an appointment with a new therapist tomorrow. And just generally stuff is fairly stable right now.
3) What is not going well for you?
I am super behind on teaching / grading.
4) Would you rather be always cold or always hot?
Idk. Always hot probably. Cold toes and extremities are the worst.
Hello @1morday
I'm glad you are doing okay, but I hope you can rest soon. I'm sorry your behind on grading. Are your students giving you a hard time about it? Good luck with the new therapist! I hope they are the right fit :D
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Thanks snail. I had a zoom call with her today. She seems so good. The last one was damaging, and the one before was helpful up to a point but we never really addressed the central work...
Hope you're doing well too!