Self-Harm Recovery Check-In: Friday, December 13th, 2019
Happy Friday lovely SHR Community!
Check-in questions:
How are you feeling today?
How has the week been for you so far?
Is there anything you would you to share with us?
I am looking forward to hearing from you as always!
With love from France,
Valeria
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@admaiorasemper
I was feeling seemingly fine this morning, just tired cause of 4 hour nights for a week and a half, I guess this is my New sleep schedule now
But now, at noon, after multiple puny triggers, I feel the worst. Every sound hit like a bomb shell, constant taste of blood in my mouth, no matter how much I rinse it. And feeling like everything around me is our to make me feel awful.
My week wasn't too bad just too full for me, with group therapy twice two hours, and hour and a half interview-like appointment on Wednesday and an appointment to fill in a long winded form also taking over an hour. On top of the everyday irritations that almost constantly come in.
In therapy I expressed that I anticipated the exhaustion hitting me one of these days, and I guess today, the day I don't have anyone to talk about it with, had to be the day it happened.
On top of that, people unintentionally keep ignoring my triggers cause they make no logical sense. Like feeling completely horrible when getting compliments, this time on me making progress on my goal of checking in daily and trying to regulate stress.
I guess I fooled everyone including myself, cause all the stress of the last week is flooding right back today
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Oh and I'm kinda supposed to go to my gp, cause I got a glass splitter stuck in the sole of my foot. But I really don't want to
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
I really get it, it must feel just like another overwhelming task. I am really sorry you have deal with this too. I wonder if he/she would be willing to come to your place instead, if you explain her/him how you are currently feeling? I suppose walking may also be somewhat difficult or painful?
@admaiorasemper
With ibuprofen it doesn't hurt too back, and I thought I had taken all the glass out when I stepped in it Last Tuesday I believe. But last night walking on it started hurting more again .So I'm a little worried more glass is left feeling into my skin and it's gonna get inflamed if I just leave it.
Sorta fun fact, gp's are called house doctors here, but they stopped coming to your home a long time ago. Unless you're bedridden.
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Do you have doctors on night or weekend call, that do come to your place when GPs' offices are closed and it is not a hospital emergency? If so, it may be an option just to wait a few more hours...
@admaiorasemper
I checked the doctor's office's website and basically comes down to having to call them. And calling, especially with an unknown person makes me ready nervous and stressed. So I'm gonna try and take it easy and see it get any better over the weekend
But thanks for thinking along, that's really kind 🙂😌
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
You are very welcome and I do hope it will get better <3
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
I feel for you Richard. Your week does sound as a very full one and it makes perfect sense to me that stress and exhaustion would come knock at your door and make you feel so overwhelmed. I know it is not the same as therapy, but this community is here for you and you can talk and vent here as much and as often as you like, should you wish so. I am also just a post away.
I know it can be extremely difficult to take in compliments. I know a compliment can trigger feelings of guilt, shame, and this general sense of not deserving it. I respect your feelings a lot and I certainly do not want to trigger you any further, so I will just say that I am sitting virtually with you.
I'm doing pretty well
Pretty well
I hope today goes well
Hi there @GoodTrouble19, it is nice to have you here today!
I am glad to hear that your week has been good and that you are doing well. I hope your weekend will also be nice!
@admaiorasemper Hey V - How are you?
Today I'm alittle of everything. Kind of depressed - alittle shaky - emotional
This week has been difficult in some ways - ok in others.
Had some urges - been distracting like crazy. Came close a few times but sort of talked myself out of it and went for a walk instead. Been trying to eat better and more regularly but anxiety makes me half sick sometimes and sometimes I just forget. Trying to keep with the self compassion and remember self care but sometimes that get's tossed out the window. But - Idk - I guess as long as we keep trying - yeah?
Thanks for the check-in. Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts V
@mytwistedsoul
Hey J! It always makes me happy when you join us here!
As long as we keep trying: I definitely agree with you. It is by regularly practising them, that self-care and self-compassion can become a default response. And from an external point of view, I can see how far you have already gone in these past few months. I think it is great that you have managed once again to distract yourself from your urges and that you have given yourself some goals as eating more regularly and more sensibly.
I am kind of ok and I will be gentle with myself, you do the same ok?
@admaiorasemper Hi!!
How are you feeling today?
I'm good! I like this subcommunity. The people here are really nice
How has the week been for you so far?
I feel so happy! I aced my geometry test, so now I have an A in that class.
Is there anything you would like to share with us?
Thank you all for being so nice! <3
Hi there @Kiwi16, thank you for checking-in with us today and sharing your happy news! Big congrats to you for your A!
I am glad you are feeling good, and it makes me really happy to know that you like being here <3
Thank you for your kinds words :)
@admaiorasemper
I am feeling tired. I fought with my mom and am behind on math. I have my exams next week and I'm still now sure if I'm ready.
This week was fine. Lots of studying!
@PurpleSnail
Hi there sweet Snail! Thank you for being here today.
I am really sorry you had a fight with your mum... I hope everything is ok now? I wish you the best of luck with your exams, one more week to go... hold on <3
