Self-Harm Recovery Check-In - Friday, November 6, 2020
Check-In Questions
1) How are you feeling?
2) What is going well for you?
3) What is not going well for you?
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
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1) How are you feeling?
Cold .Tired. Drained. Empty. Fake
2) What is going well for you?
Life has for at least the moment stopped falling apart
3) What is not going well for you?
Most stuff isn't quite working out.
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
I don't see me getting that far or having that as a option.
Hello @Flornhope
It sounds like you aren't doing well right now. I'm sorry <3 Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help <3
@SnailPurple Thank you. I will be ok. Please don't worry about me. I'll be fine.
@SnailPurple
1. i'm feeling lonely, but i'm working through it.
2. i have new friends and i think they like me!
3. i'm grounded because i stayed out late, and now i'm sad :(
4. when i retire, i want to move to ireland and become everyone's grandmother
Hello @bunnygwen06
I'm sorry you are feeling lonely. I'm glad you are trying to work through it though! 7Cups has a self-help guide on working through loneliness. Would you like me to send it to you? I'm glad you have new friends! I'm sorry you are grounded. How long will you be grounded? I love that idea :)
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1) How are you feeling?
I'm feeling okay today. Yesterday was pretty wild, so I'm glad to have some internal peace and quiet today
2) What is going well for you?
I've been clean for about two weeks, so that's nice
3) What is not going well for you?
I had an anxiety attack yesterday, and it felt really awful.
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
I'd like to live somewhere with a lot of nature, where I can hang out with a couple of cats and dogs. If I have any kids or grandkids, they'd come visit once a week or so, and we can go out into the woods for a walk and just talk about life
Hello @honestpanda81
I'm glad you are doing okay. I'm sorry about your anxiety attack, are you feeling better? Congrats on being clean for two weeks! That's awesome and I'm really proud of you <3 I love your future plan <3
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Thank you, Snail, I'm feeling better now 
@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling?
Ok. Have been up and down. But my office is tidy, so I feel a lot calmer...
2) What is going well for you?
Have been helped by some tools from therapy.
3) What is not going well for you?
Need to sleep more. Beginning to slip on how much I am eating, but without skipping meals. I'm basically just eating salad and enough token protein to not get called out on it...
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
Um... Prepare myself for death?
Hello @1morday
I'm glad you are doing okay. I'm also glad therapy is going well for you! What tools have you been using? I'm sorry you aren't getting enough sleep, I hope you can rest soon <3 I also hope you can eat some more food soon :)
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
Thanks snail! :)
Its just CBT stuff. I realized a lot of my SH inclinations, and also anxiety and general sense of being overwhelmed is from feeling like a failure / not good enough, etc. My therpaist told me to use the bridge thought "I am trying really hard". I am. She said if I try to tell myself I am a sucess it will not work, because I will never believe it right now. But I can truly say and know its true that I am trying really hard. She reminded me that when you have a student, even if they struggle a lot in class, who really really tries, that is someone whose side you take, and who you really root for. I have to just keep saying "I am trying really hard" when things are tough, or when they are not, to train myself. It is funny how the brain works. I am not aware of feeling like a failure at the front of my mind when I want to SH and I am not aware of why realizing and acknowledging I am trying would break that pressure towards SH. But that seems to be how it is working. Not perfectly, but largely.
1. I'm feeling good enough. just can't wait for time off work.
2. I'm writing music again! mod04k, so not exactly my usual wheelhouse, but I'll take it all the same
3. i can't begin to describe how much i hate the new manager at work. it makes it absolute hell just to show up
4. I'm a zoomer. retirement just isn't an economic possibility for many people under 30
Hello @creativeusernamehere
I'm glad you are feeling well! I'm also glad you are writing music again :) What genre do you write in? I'm sorry you don't like your manager. I hope you can work together well <3 As a fellow zoomer, I understand feeling like there will be no retirement.
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1) How are you feeling? - I'm feeling okay. A bit recharged.
2) What is going well for you? - I've been drinking water more and my body and mind feel better.
3) What is not going well for you? - Uh been having a hard time with SH thoughts.
4) What would you like to do when you retire? - I've always wanted a hobby farm
Hello @Goldcherry2113
I'm glad you are doing okay. I'm also glad you are drinking more water! That's great, I need to start doing the same :) I'm sorry you are having urges, let me know if you want to talk about them <3 What is a hobby farm?
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple, hey there!
1) How are you feeling?
I'm happy!
2) What is going well for you?
I finally have my own bedroom!
3) What is not going well for you?
Well, I have a review for my college entrance exam, but it won't happen yet because not a lot of students are enrolling in a review center. Alternatively, I can go to a one-on-one review. Nevertheless, I proceed to wait for more classmates despite the uncertainties, all because I'm scared to review alone with a teacher. I don't know if that was a good decision, since I have symptoms where my heart beats a bit faster when I'm in uncomfortable situations. In fact, I do have the feeling that I have moderate anxiety. 
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
I don't know. I haven't experienced to work in a job yet. Well, out curiosity, I would love to hear your answer in this question if you want too. :)
Thanks for the check-in and take care!
Hello @LovelyOrangeJuice
I'm glad you are happy! Having your own bedroom is awesome, congrats! I'm sorry about the stress your exam review is causing you. It is okay if you don't feel comfortable being alone with the professor. You should prioritize your safety and well-being over everything else. Please let me know if you want to chat about your anxiety <3 I'm not entirely sure what I would do in retirement, but I think having more time to read and watch Netflix sounds nice :)
@SnailPurple
Thanks for reassuring me Purple! Chatting sounds interesting, but I'm not yet ready for that. Besides, the check-ins here in 7 cups is enough to make me feel better. :) Spending time in Netflix sure is nice!
1) How are you feeling? Right now I'm okay. I don't actually feel anything but if I think about that I'll feel worse. Today's been good though. I'm a bit tired but I barely slept for a couple of days and only managed properly last night so probably just need another good sleep.
2) What is going well for you? I have the motivation to revise and I am engaging in my counselling.
3) What is not going well for you? Most things but to name one my relationship has been difficult recently. He is so emotional and I understand mental health but it's having too much of an impact on me and the relationship and I don't have the resilience to handle it atm. I get so worried about him and I've already been so down/sad recently.
4) What would you like to do when you retire? It's difficult to think that far ahead but travel, maybe?
Hello @peacefulmember22
I'm glad you are doing okay despite everything going on. Having motivation is a great thing! Good luck with revisions :) I'm also glad you are engaging with your counseling. That can be hard, so I'm proud of you <3 I'm sorry about your relationship. I agree, it can be hard when the other person is really emotional. it doesn't;t mean that you are a bad partner, your feelings are valid and important <3 Traveling sounds fun! Where would you go?
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
@SnailPurple
1) How are you feeling?
Very tired, emotionally exhausted, and just faking happy
2) What is going well for you?
Grades in school are pretty good
3) What is not going well for you?
Family friend's son just passed away
4) What would you like to do when you retire?
Move with my significant other to Guam or Taiwan and just live it out happy
Hello @shimakie
It sounds like you are really tired. I hope you can get some rest soon <3 I'm also sorry about your loss <3 Greig can be really isolating, but you are not alone. I know life might seem painful right now, but I promise it will get better. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. I'm glad you have good grades though! Moving to Guam o Taiwan with your SO sounds wonderful <3
Thank you for checking in, stay safe!
1) How are you feeling? For a while now I felt very horrible, but today I actually feel ok. Like I don't feel happy but I don't feel overwhelming depression or anxiety either.
2) What is going well for you? For now, it has been the little things. Went to a new coffee shop in my area and it was nice - even though I don't drink coffee anymore, got a frozen lemonade. Today, I haven't thought about relapsing. Also, found out I really like sparkling water as a soda alternative.
3) What is not going well for you? I still have this unwavering feeling of worthlessness and never can actually feel joy. It is more of oh I don't feel complete despair today. I still can't get over my PTSD which makes me want to relapse.
4) What would you like to do when you retire? It has always been hard for me to think about the future. I personally find it hard to say I will live that long. For the longest time, I grappled with this, and the conclusion always leads me to not living past 20-25.
