Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-In: Monday, August 24th, 2020
Heya everyone! Happy Monday!
Welcome to this brand new week, lets hope it will be great/successful/exciting/chill/happy, however you need it to be!
Today I wanted to talk about control. While there are certain things in our lives that we have control over, there are some others on which we have little to no control over. This can be frustrating, but we need to work on accepting that we cant control these things, so that instead of feeling bad/guilty about the things we cant control, we can focus on the things we can actually control!
1) How are you feeling today?
2) What is going well and not-so well (if anything)?
3) How do you envision the week ahead? Any plan, goal, apprehensions?
4) Are there some things that you cant control but get to you? Are there some things in your control that you could focus on more?
Feel free to share anything else in your mind! Ill be looking forward hearing from you all!
Take good care of your amazing selves, stay safe <3
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How am I feeling today?
Pretty blank, but a bit better than I have in a week and I'm trying not to attribute that to the fact that I SH last night. Back onto recovery...again.
What is going well and not so well?
Things that are going well are that I got watercolour paper after not having it for a while. Things that are going not so well is that my parents are arguing non stop, I think they're separating, my dad won't speak to me unless to give out, almost all my friends are pulling away from me aaaaaand I've SH again.
How do I envision the week ahead?
Pretty chill, not a lot of plans, and spent writing, writing, writing if I can muster the energy and creativity.
Are there some things that I can't control but get to me?
My recent bout of insomnia. Don't have sleeping pills *shrug*
Are there some things in my control I could focus on more?
Errrrm, well, I suppose my return to school and my schoolwork?
@memelord500
Hey there! I'm glad to hear you're feeling better than you have in a week, despite feeling blank. I'm sorry though to hear that you've SHed last night but I'm proud of you for getting back up and getting back to the recovery road again! Do you know if something specific triggered you, if you don't mind me asking? <3
Oh that's nice for the watercolour paper! Have you already planned what you're going to do with it?
I'm sorry though to hear about your parent arguing, how are you handling it? As for your friends, do you think there could be things to do to connect with them again?
It sounds like a nice week ahead, chill and creative!
Insomnia can be tough and make things quite harder when lacking good sleep... Has this been going on for long?
Good luck for school and schoolwork!
Thanks for checking-in, take care!
@LinearWaves
Wow such a caring reply! It's nice 😊 As to your questions:
I'm not entirely sure what triggered it, but there were a lot of feelings that resurfaced yesterday about myself, hatred and such, and I was just so overwhelmed and sad and next thing I know I kind of need bandages!
I'm actually working on some paintings at the moment, and I'm trying to do a mixed media maybe. At the moment though, as in right now, I'm trying to do a nature art print, all mountains and trees, minimalistic you know?
I'm not really handling the fighting too well to be honest. I'm used to it but it's just the fact that it's always happening and I'm just upset by it all. My friends, well, I'm trying to organise some things to do, which is sort of working! Coffee today, and we're going charity shopping tomorrow.
Insomnia has been going on for a week now? I'm ending up cross stitching lol, working on a tee shirt rn.
Thank you very much for all the questions and caring and such. It was nice to see 😊 Not that others aren't caring here, of course, it was just a nice surprise!
@memelord500
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Hey hey :)
1) How are you feeling today? Hum sleepy !
2) What is going well and not-so well (if anything)? Didn't get much rest last night, so I woke up pretty jittery and it makes me more emotional and it's kinda draining, though I've been worse ! Did my yoga that was really nice today, good to relax :) But didn't quite find the motivation to go food shopping ..
3) How do you envision the week ahead? Any plan, goal, apprehensions? Focused on the end of the week as I'm on vacation friday evening ! Means I've got to finish stuff at work but I've already finished one little job today so hopefully it'll be the same the other days :)
4) Are there some things that you cant control but get to you? Are there some things in your control that you could focus on more? Oh other people's opinions and emotions get to me so much ! I wish I spent less time trying to please others ... Because I know I can't control their thoughts but will my brain understand ? Things I'm in control of ? Maybe just me ? Like getting control over my body (and hopefully my thoughts one day but that seems like a longer mission). Yoga has been helping with that, feeling things change in my body, I'm actually becoming more flexible and it's changed how I feel as I move, how I feel the ground with my feet, feels more stable .. I don't know if this is making any sense ? x)
@Slizzy564
Heya Slizzy! I'm sorry to hear you're feeling sleepy and didn't get much sleep last night... it definitely sounds like a draining way to start off the week so I hope you can catch up on sleep! It's great though that yoga helped you relax!
Hopefully time goes fast until Friday evening! It's great that you've already finished one job today, it's always pretty satisfying and encouraging/motivation to see one thing finished, keep up the good work!
I get you on that, it's like knowing something yet not acting accordingly, the brain can be quite stubborn! It's great though that you're seeing that you can be more in control of yourself, already seeing some changes of the control you have over your body (it does make sense yes!) I hope it can encourage you for the longer mission, aka getting more control over your thoughts, even though the changes take longer to see! <3
Thanks for checking-in, rest well and take care!
It's been awhile since I've done a check in! Hello fellow group members!
1) How are you feeling today?
I had gotten a lot of rest lately, but due to my physical impairments I am not in the best shape. I do feel better than I did before, although it's been exhausting just getting out of bed.
2) What is going well and not-so well (if anything)?
I'm still trying to eat healthy despite my lack of drive. I do think about what I need, although it's difficult to do. I've still had thoughts of self harm although I try to use my healthy coping mechanisms instead.
3) How do you envision the week ahead? Any plan, goal, apprehensions?
Hopefully my doctor getting back to me and setting up some form of examination as I explain to them what's been going on lately. I am worried that I might have to be an inpatient.
4) Are there some things that you cant control but get to you? Are there some things in your control that you could focus on more?
Visual distortions, my brain overworking itself, hallucinations and possible seizures. I can control how I think about my thoughts, but not always what comes up. So I am working on minimizing the fears I have right now. I can control my actions but not hateful voices that pop up suddenly. All in all, just trying to do my best.
Thank you for the post!! I'm saving that helpful picture.
@ShadowTag
Heya Shadow! Good to see you again in the check-ins!
I'm glad to hear that you've gotten lots of rest lately, and despite not being in the best shape you're still noticing that you're feeling better than you did before! I hope that this can keep improving over time as it sounds challenging and exhausting <3
I'm proud of you for still trying to eat despite the lack of drive, and for using your coping mechanisms even when thoughts of self-harm arise, these aren't easy things to do but you're making the right choices for yourself and for your well-being which is great, keep up the amazing work!
I hope your doctor can get back to you and set everything up, as well as discussing your worries. I like how you define it as trying to do your best, it definitely sounds like it and I'm all heart with you!
You're very welcome, glad it was helpful! Thanks for checking-in, take care!
@LinearWaves
Thank you as always.
@LinearWaves
1) How are you feeling today?
Hey Linear!! I'm feeling alright- I just started school today and it was quite interesting. the school stress is slowly but surely approaching me and I have to say that it's pretty hard but it's going to be alright. I have a lot going on on my plate and trying to balance everything at once is going to be a challenge that I'm trying to get ready for. There's definitely this role of excitement and really weird motivation that I feel from this stress though, which is what I'm currently trying to focus on for now <3
2) What is going well and not-so well (if anything)?
I've been having a bit of trouble with keeping up with my social life a bit because of how busy I've been. Learning how to manage a really busy social life and network while handling responsibilities and academic stuff is still something I'm getting ahold of- but I have patience for myself!
3) How do you envision the week ahead? Any plan, goal, apprehensions?
I have a goal to just keep calm for the first week of school. I hope to start studying for the SAT but first I need to make a schedule on how to start :o and I want to learn more about procreate and art! 3 goals- hehe
4) Are there some things that you cant control but get to you? Are there some things in your control that you could focus on more?
I can't control how others think about me and I've gotten better at accepting that!! <3
@TheAtticusFinch
Heya Atticus ! Its great to hear school was interesting, how is it done, are you back to in-person lessons or is it all online ? As for the stress, Im sorry to hear that its slowly but surely setting in… Is it usually something that gets easier along the school year?
It sounds like a challenge indeed to balance everything, but stress and challenge can definitely be stimulating and super motivating! I hope you manage to balance it all and still find enough time for yourself and to rest!
Its great and really positive that you have patience for yourself, I get you on the fact that its actually tough to both be busy with responsibilities yet still have a social life, Im sure that now that youve identified this youll find a way to adjust the balance a bit and get a hold of this!
It sounds like nice goals for the week ahead! Keeping calm for now and planning how to study for your SAT (SAT is the big exam we always see in movies before people get to university, right?), plus some art, very complete :p
Its great to hear youve gotten better at accepting you cant control how others think of you, its not an easy one for sure, even if logically we understand it theres often still a part of us that kinda tries… So well done on that!
Take care and thank for checking-in <3
@LinearWaves
Hi linear- sorry for the late reply 🥺School is all online and I think it's honestly just going to get harder and harder :(( but that just means I'm going to have to learn how to adapt and learn how to handle the stress in a healthy way, if that makes sense? I always forget that the sat is a foreign concept to non-US people; yes it's a way corporations charge students extra $$$ to "measure their intelligence" when it's not really even a valid way to measure intelligence at all and just has a bad history :// not excited to study for it but I have to do it soon anyways :(
@LinearWaves
Hey thereee
1) How are you feeling today?
I felt lazy to to take my classes... I'll take it anyway. :)
2) What is going well and not-so well (if anything)?
My classes is going well, and I'm almost done with most of my subjects for the 1st semester.
3) How do you envision the week ahead? Any plan, goal, apprehensions?
Yes! I'm taking my exams in some subjects this week. And, I'll also watch Fullmetal Alchemist, an anime series. It's pretty chill. Study, answer, and relax.
4) Are there some things that you cant control but get to you? Are there some things in your control that you could focus on more?
Yep. I can't control my parent's judgements, and it has a big impact on my personality.
Yeah, I'm on the stage of adolescence. I'll focus on getting to know myself better. Ahh finding what my passion in life is quite difficult. 😅
Well, thanks for reading.
@LovelyOrangeJuice
Heya !
Its good to hear youve taken your class despite feeling lazy, it can be tough when feeling lazy so well done for that !
Its nice to hear your classes are going well and youre already almost done with most of your subjects for the first semester, are there any cool ones that interested you the most?
Good luck for your exams, youve got this! Oh I loved reading Fullmetal Alchemist! I watched a few episodes of the anime although I dont really remember it, it isnt exactly the original plot right, or is it?
Our parents judgments cant be controlled indeed, which is tough to accept and do nothing about but yeah, we have to accept it and just do our things no matter what their judgment is!
As for focusing on getting to know yourself better, thats a good one! Finding your passion, Id agree with you that its quite difficult! There was this Ted-talk about it that really helped me, it was in French though so Ill just try to share the general message it said: our life is like a page, it starts blank and we dont know whats going to be on it in the end, but every experience we take adds a dot on it and maybe at some point well be able to connect the dots and form a cool drawing that will make sense! Its very imaged but basically, we dont need to have it all figured out at first, we can just try different things until at some point we learn what gets us going!
Thanks for checking-in, take care!
@LinearWaves
Thanks as always! I'll keep that nice Ted-talk advice in mind. :) Time to answer your questions.
Well, I wasn't interested with any subjects on my first semester. Because I'm obsessed in finishing everything as fast as I can. But, if I were to pick one, I'll go with Creative writing. It looks interesting to learn how to write fictional stories.
Wow! It's so awesome that you read Fullmetal Alchemist. There are 2 anime adaptations for that manga. The first adaptation that aired on 2003 didn't follow the plot's manga halfway. The second adaptation, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood followed everything that happened on the manga's plot. I'm watching the older version. So, the plot is either exactly the original or not, depends on what version you'll choose to watch. :)
@LovelyOrangeJuice
That sounds like a cool subject! Do you write?
Oh I didn
@LinearWaves
Yep, I write for the sake of journals. I don't write as often though. It entirely depends on my mood..