Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-In: Monday, December 9th, 2019
Heya lovely people! Happy Monday, I hope the week starts well for you all x
How are you feeling?
Are there any struggle/victory youd like to share with us today?
Can you think of a few things that keep you motivated?
Take good care of yourselves, I cant wait to hear from you all! Sending hugs for those who want them x
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I'm feeling pretty empty right now, at least I don't feel a need to fill the emptiness, cause I know that's an endless and impossible task (looking at you jing wei)
I self harmed a lot yesterday, a lot of little things but still
I think the knowledge I'll feel worse if I don't keep going is what motivates me
Hi @Madaraismyspiritanimal read your post and can relate. Stay strong and know you're not alone in this feeling. It's a dark mind space to be stuck in. Try your best to fight the impulses you're beautiful in this world. Self harm prisoners are warriors in this life battling daily to just survive. It's a rollercoaster ride of an existence. Praying for your day to be a positive one my friend. 🥰🙏🏼
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Hey there Madera, thank you for joining and checking in today !
Im sorry to hear youre feeling empty and also self-harmed a lot yesterday, even if it was little things. Im not actually sure what feeling whole could be, but I do hope that you can take good care of yourself and focus on what feels good for you.
Youre doing a great job by keeping going and Im really proud of you for that! I dont know if its something that can help you, but whenever I self-harm, I try to think about it afterwards to think about what else I could have done. That way I try to think about an alternative thing I could have turned to instead of self-harm, so that it gives me ideas of things to do the next time I face a similar situation. Is it something youd like give a try to work on?
Take care x
@LinearWaves
Hi there Waves! I am not feeling very well today to be honest, I feel once again lost in a constant and rapid change of contradictory thoughts. And it is exhausting.
Therapy is a struggle for me. Lately even more so.
Motivation... hmm... hope, I guess? Hope that I may one day finally experience how it feels to be a whole person, instead of sparse bits.
Have a nice day, take care
Hey @admaiorasemper thanks for sharing I hope your holding up ok so far today. I also find therapy mentally exhausting always have to nap afterwards. Thinking of you in this difficult time 😊
@Gildedbutterfly11
I am holding up ok, yes, SH is an option very distant both in time and mind. Thank you for your kind words :)
@admaiorasemper that's quite ok ad I understand. If you ever want to chat things over you can private message me on here too as I'm a listener 😊 hope today is a better one for you.
@admaiorasemper
Hi Valeria! Im glad to hear from you, although I really sorry that youre not feeling very well today. It does indeed sound tiring to be lost in this rapid and constant change of contradictory thoughts. Im not completely sure to fully understand what it means so I hope what I will say can apply. When I find myself overwhelmed with thoughts, I try to get myself to stay stuck on a first one, so I can try to challenge it. So I try to ask myself what is my thought, what makes me think that, do I have any proof for it, does it imply anything, how can I think differently about it, what can I do about it and so on. And most time, doing this work with a pen and a paper helps me stay focused on the thought. But then again, Im not sure if it applies here and if you can adapt it to use it...
Im sorry to hear that therapy is a struggle lately. Were you able to maybe identify a specific reason for the recent increased struggle?
I like this mindset, hope is a very important thing and it makes us do great things x
I hope the rest of your day went better than how it started, if you need to let things out more dont hesitate! Take care and thank you for checking in today x
Hello @LinearWaves ! Happy monday!
I've got an exam this morning but that's okay because it's my last one. After that, my christmas break starts!
I guess my exam could be my struggle for the day :/
One thing that keeps me motivated is looking up to one of the grad students. Sh'es got her life together and I keep telling myself "she worked hard, so can you!". I have no internal motivation to do anything anymore but she's helped me get back up in a way. Of course, she's not responsible for my happiness, that's on me. But just seeing how content and hard working she is has motivated me to get my life together.
One last thing before I go, someone and I made a bet and I won, but she didn't want to/was unable to to pay me so I asked her out on a date instead. She said yes! I'm really nervous about how this will go because she's very picky and particualr about things so I'm goping I won't mess up!
Alrighty, I''ve got to go do an exam now. Take care!
@CentreMid
Hey there!
Happy Monday to you too and happy start of your Christmas break!
I hope your last exam went okay, and that this exam period wasn