Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Monday February 04th, 2019
Hello Amazing community!
I apologise for the late check in. Sadly the person who normally posts todays check-in was unable to do so and therefore I apologise for the lateness as I only recently checked my pm's to become aware of this!
Only a short check-in today!
How are you doing?
What advice would you give to your past self
Is there anything else you would like to share?
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@bear228 Hey How are you?
It's been a day fill with bad decisions.
Nothing constructive
Nope
Take care
@mytwistedsoul
Sorry @Bear228 that was rude. I should have checked myself. I apologise.
@mytwistedsoul
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@rebecca947 Hey, I am so sorry for yesterday.
I should have did the HALT. I was angry and tired, I should have took a step back, I should have went for a walk. I should have done 50 other things. I used to keep journal's and I got away from it. So I started again. It felt better to get it out. I can write what I want and I don't need to worry about hurting other people's feelings.
I've been keeping it light today, not thinking about work, listening to some weird jungle thing and I baked some bread.
I know that I need to keep this appointment, regardless of what that little voice is telling me. A small part of is me kind of, sort of looking forward to it. I'm still nervous of course.
I am sorry, again, I don't like being like that. That's not who I am.
Take care.
@mytwistedsoul
Hey Soul, there
@rebecca947 Hey How are you?
I have alot of regrets, too many. I should have kept my bad mood to myself, though. I didn't think until after and then it was too late.
This appointment is tomorrow, I am so nervous and A bunch of other things. Everything. Idk, I'm trying not to think too much about it because I can feel myself get more nervous. So I have to go find something to be busy with.
Thank you for all your patience and understanding. Thank you for talking with me.
Take care
Hey there @bear228 !! How's it going??
I'm alright. I haven't had a chance to eat much today because of how busy I've been. I am having turkey dinner later, so hopefully that will fill me up.
One piece of advice I would give my past self is that people don't generally pay attention to all of those small things I fuss over. That one piece of hair is not cooprating? Whos cares? Hair does whatever and I bet someone you've interacted today's going through the same thing. Your clothing's a little out of place? Big deal, your clothes moves around when you do, so stop expecting it to look prim and proper 24/7.
One last thing before dinner, my crush laughed at something I said during class today. I can't remember what I said but she found it funny for some reason. It made me feel happy. Her laugh's so cute!!
Anyways, I should go get some dinner. I haven't had a proper meal yet today and I'm kinda tired (I had a few apple slices this morning for breakfast but that's it). Take care!!
@CentreMid
Heya, Mid! Happy Chinese New Year for you, today or tomorrow (Im so bad with time zones!)
Ooft, busy schedule today! Good to hear youll be having a turkey dinner, and I hope itll fill you up too! Also remember, breakfast is the most important meal of the day! Tsk tsk, eat up! :) jk
Ooft, I absolutely love your advice to your younger self!!! Appearances dont have to matter much in day-to-day/daily life. I see people wear PJs out to shop with their bed hair and I dont judge, if that helps haha so many customers have come to me looking like that, but what I see if your personality. Way more than looks.
Aww! That sounds like a positive thing about your day today! :D take good care of yourself xx
Heya @rebecca947 !!
Just a quick update, I did get some dinner afterwards, and it was awesome!! Turkey puts me to sleep so I'm hoping to get a good night's rest haha
Oh, I can only imagine what kinds of customers you get. You're a very kind person for looking past their appearances!! Personally, I don't really like going out in PJs, something doesn't feel right to me. I feel like I should at least get dressed, even if it's just jeans and a t-shirt. :/
I really need to sleep, it's almost midnight where I am. oof. Anyways, it was nice hearing from you!! Take care!!
I just wanted to check in. I saw a new counselor (again) today and... it went so much better than the last woman I tried. She was really accepting of my famiy and when I mentioned that the other woman I'd seen had said she'd "overlook" queerness and the whole "love the sinner, hate the sin" thing, her expresson and tone of voice was really... good? like, it felt like she really, truly, understood why that had been hurtful and upsetting and made me feel kind of hopeless, like I wasn't going to be able to find another counselor I could talk to and be honest with. So... it was just really nice to meet her. And, it even sort of felt like we got some small stuff accomplished even though it was the first session. And... as far as anxious-me goes, I felt comfortable with her. so... that's just a huge positive I wanted to share. She even offered to call me if someone cancels since my next appt is 2 weeks out, and that... just made me feel like she took me seriously? like, she understands I'm not doing great and feels that weekly check ins would be helpful (which is how I feel, so it was a relief for her to speak that way without me saying a thing).
@RabbitTangerine hi there! I just wanted to say how excited I am and so happy that you found someone you found comfortable with. Finding a good therapists can be so hard (and so draining) its amazing that you kept looking and that you feel like this therapist really hears you! Thats such lovely news to share
@bear228
hey there, not doing great. Havent been for a while, and this is causing me concern.
Hoping for some support. I have a lot of therapy in the past and some still now and I have been able to develop coping skills and a wise mind. Thats something I prided myself in and saw as part of myself. My mind is not in that place anymore, and thinking and feeling with compassion requires effort that is outside of my current mindset, and that I can remember something helpful one minute and then forget the next. I live in my mind because Im afraid of living in the present.
@asm94
Hey, Asm! I