Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-In: Monday, February 3rd, 2020
Heya amazing people! A new week is starting and I cant wait to hear how youre all doing!
(in case of doubt, listen to the cute hedgehog: you've got this!)
How are you feeling today?
What is/will be the highlight and struggle of your day?
Would you like to set a goal for this week? Or to focus on something? (for example focusing on doing more self-care things)
Happy Monday, take good care of your amazing selves x
*hugs for those who want them*
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@LinearWaves
Yep definitely gonna call crisis prevention, so they can tell me it's all fucking fine
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Heya Madara, I really hope calling then can make you feel better (even just a bit is good to take) I'm all heart with you. If you're feeling like it, don't hesitate to come back to check in later in the day x
(also, I have no idea if this could be related or making things harder, but I remember you've recently shared that you were increasing your meds' doses (I can't remember how recently though...) so I just wanted to bring this up in case it could be related)
@LinearWaves
Thank you for thinking along, I was actually doing well on my meds, but no matter how much meds help me, I keep having episodes of intense anger, about honestly nothing in particular, but myself and everyone else wants a reason I say I'm angry about how my life is and that I hate it. Making me actually more angry since I remember everything, present or past, that didn't go well or my way. Until I'm just exhausted of being tired and I kinda go back to "normal"
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
I mean exhausted of being angry, not tired
@LinearWaves
Oh and I did contact crisis line, and they talked me through breaking up a talk I have this afternoon into smaller bits, and it was just a good distraction
It can feel so tedious, needing someone to talk about the talk in having about my future. It feels like between the talking I can't actually figure out how to enjoy life
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Im glad the crisis helpline was a good distraction ! Sometimes its all about the distractions we can find to help these episodes pass, but yeah they stay tiring…
I get what you mean about having these episodes even if the meds help, its like everything goes okay until some kind of breaking point where everything that happened seems to pile up and be taken the wrong way. And then it just goes back to normal until the next breaking point. I struggle with the same and I wish I had more ideas on how to handle them or anything related but I dont (at least not yet, Ill keep you updated if I can find anything someday). I think the only helpful things are to know yourself and recognize when the episodes are coming up and to know what things can help you through them, its not preventing them but at least its handling them and its always a start.
As for figuring out how to enjoy life, and these talks, I have to say that Im proud of you for making the efforts, especially as it is so tedious. I really hope that on the long term it can become easier to enjoy life in between them. I remember you had mentioned checking in with yourself, do you think you could add a part on these check ins, to focus on what you enjoyed in the day? Sometimes being mindful on what went well, what we appreciated, and so on, can help us enjoy more even if we have to force ourselves at first.
Take good care of yourself, thanks for updating us on how youve been doing!
I cannot seem to focus today and it is driving me nuts! I've tried to refocus but I'm still having trouble focusing. It's all good though. I think I'll go for a walk or do some meditation, and then get. stuff. done!! All in all I've been good. I catagorize good by I'm Not Crying Everyday, I'm still not super happy with where I am, but things have been good in general. Today has just felt off. I had a slow start today and I havent really gotten back on track. Its fine though. My brain feels like a mix between static on a TV and a slow computer that wont load. Does that make any sense? Its just one of those days. Anywho thanks for listening to (or.. reading) my mindless rambling about nothing in particular. I hope you have a good day.
@fairmindedRaspberries1389
Hey there! Good to hear from you!
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@LinearWaves
I'm feeling overwhelmed and drained. I haven't had a good nights sleep in a while. My job is mainly the reason I'm so stressed. I'm trying my best to get through the days. I wish I never would have agreed to work more hours. I feel trapped.
@RedHawk6547
Hey there !
Im sorry to hear how overwhelmed and drained you are. It seems really challenging that your job has been stressing these days and causing you lack of sleep plus making you feel trapped due to having more work hours. Is there any way you could talk about it with your superior to find some compromise?
Im very proud of you for trying your best to get through the days, but I really hope things can get less stressing soon, so that you can get some much needed good sleep.
Take good care of yourself x
How are you feeling today?
Not the best
What is/will be the highlight and struggle of your day?
My highlight is my cat Bear cuddleing with me and the struggle was getting out of bed
Would you like to set a goal for this week? Or to focus on something?
I'd like to write more this week
@Goldcherry2113
Heya Gold !
Im sorry to hear you werent feeling the best, its good that you were able to cuddle with your cat though! Although I bet it doesnt make getting out of bed easier if youre cuddling in bed with your cat haha! I hope the rest of your day went better!
Thats a great goal! May I ask what kind of things you write, is it a novel?
Take care and thanks for checking in x
