Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Saturday, April 13th, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I have really missed you all. 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
What is your favourite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately? :)
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How are you feeling today?
Not amazing, I broke up with my girlfriend today BUT I'm coping pretty well and taking good care of myself
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it?
This week has been relatively good, I've just started school holidays which is nice, I went to a fate with my mum yesterday! and I've been spending a lot of time exercising and in nature
What is your favorite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately?
I love taking a nice bath, walking my dogs and music. I've been doing all of these lately but I think I'll treat myself to a lush bath bomb when I go to the shops on Monday
Hey there @slytherinstarling123 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
Oww....I am really sorry to hear that, break-ups are though. I am glad to hear that you are taking good care of yourself tho. If there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you, so feel free to reach out to us anytime here as well :)
yay for holidays! :) - I am looking forward to my week off from work soon as well :P
Also, I am glad to hear that you have been able to spend some nice time out in the nature and taking good are of yourself physically as well ^-^
Music is amazing! What kind of music do you like? - I mean, I love music and I am always open for any suggestion to check out. ^-^
Also, what kind of dog do you have? Dogs can be just such a great companion just being there for you no matter what. :)
...I have actually never used a bath bomb. Not even exactly sure how it works but now I am curious. I might Google it later. Either way tho, sounds like a really good plan, I hope you will be able to find something for yourself on Monday :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Heya! thanks for your reply :). I like lots of different types of music, some of my favourites are Rex Orange County, Panic! At The Disco, Queen, Matt Maltese, Billie Eilish, Twenty One Pilots, The Beatles etc.
I have two dogs, both half jack russel half minature poodle, they're very small and sweet
Hi @redmark !! I hope you're doing well
I'm feeling a lot of things today. Actually, I've been feeling a lot of things lately, especially this past week. I've been thinking about the way I act and why I do and I've drawn some conclusions. Of course, I won't know for sure until I have a full assessment done (my counselor has suggested this and I agree, I want to figure out what's wrong with me), but if what I've found turns out to be correct, then I know what my options are for treatment programs and who I need to set boundaries with and who I need to cut out completely. I don't want to get into details about what I've found because it's all so theoretical so far and I don't want to put ideas into anyone's heads, but I think I'm ready to heal and to overcome my self-harming tendencies once and for all.
Self care this week looks like figuring out what feelings are. This is kinda of related to the conclusions I mentioned earlier. I've been unaware of something my whole life and it's only now that I'm starting to figure it out. I've never felt close to anyone. Even my soccer team who I say I love (and I do), they all seem so close to each other but I feel disconnect and I want to be part of the team. I've known some of them for years but I've always felt that distance. But I'm learning how to allow myself to feel things and trying to understand what emotions are. It's terrifying and I don't like it, but if I can't feel things, then I won't heal. Maybe I'll ask if I can get to know them all a little more, open up in the process, say something like "I love all of you. I've never really felt close to any of you though, and I'm sure you could say the same about me. I'd like to open up and get to know you all a little more, finally get to meet the team I've been a part of all this time". I don't know. Maybe not that cheesey bt something along the lines of that.
Oof. That was a lot. I should probably stop and continue studying. It's finals week ( sarcastic yay...) and I only have 2 more exams to go.
Take Care!!
Hey there @CentreMid *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
I am well....had some better days, won't complain tho, thank you for caring about me ^-^
It really sounds like you have a lot of things going on this week.
I know that feeling you know. I mean, having a diagnosis and just a name for whatever you may be going through can help a lot in actually woring on it. Like, in a "knowing your enemy" style. At least I do hope you will have some sort of answers soon and those will help you better yourself and really cut off all those things and people on your life who might have been contributing to all that you have been through and also be able to open up to new people and maybe even find some specific help to your problem that helps you come over it even faster and more efficiently. :)
I mean, I guess I just really wish the best of you. I know that in a strange way it can be exciting to get close to answers like this ^-^
You know that whole I love you guys stuff, it just sounds - or looks, I suppose - so heartfelt. I mean, I do not think it is cheesy anyways but I know that just being emotional nowadays can labelled cheesy. Either way, I am sure you will figure out the best way to present it to your teammates but it sounds like a really nice plan to open up to them and ask them and involve them to mutually try to get to know eachother better :)
I mean, more than anything, I just want you to know that I am really proud of you. I know that you have been working hard to get to this point and I just really admire your determination, it is just really inspiring. I do really, really hope for the best for you as well as I just want you to know that you are not alone in this and we are here for you no matter what so feel free to reach out to anytime we may be able to help you with anything :)
Oh....also, I do really wish the best of luck to your exams. I know those can be a bit overwhelming and stressful but make sure to find some time for yourself as well and take 5-10 minutes break sometimes. I mean, I am sure you will pass those exams, I believe in you. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
I am doing ok this week, how about you? One thing I will be doing for sefcare is yoga.
Hey there @PurpleSnail *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
Well, some Spring fatigue, I suppose and some hard feelings popping up. Overall still not too bad I guess but I am really looking forward my week off from work after this next week of work. Thank you for asking :)
Yoga sounds really nice. I have never tried it but it just seems really calming while also helps you to get some exercise. I do hope you will have a nice time doing it :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Hey, how are you?
Im not feeling too great at all, Ive been remembering something Ive been trying not to...
This week has really been horrible, I failed another math exam I had this week and a guy at school called me a faggot and a disgusting homosexual, but...nobody knows- I dont even know what I am. That and a friend of mine stole my hoodie and isnt answering their phone and only stole it because she was tired of seeing me in the hoodie.
My favorite self care activity is just being able to talk on her and to one of my friends, I havent talked on here in a while but I have been talking to my friend a lot.
Hey there @plumApricot8108 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
Well, I just slept 12 hours so, definitely better than I were :P - thank you for asking :)
I am sorry to hear that you are not doing so well tho. Triggers can be really harsh. If there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you, you are not alone in this. :)
Oww, I am sorry to hear that you have had such a tough week. It is kind of said that there are still such prejudice and such ignorant hatred against gay people - which you may or may not be. I am sorry to hear that you have had to go through that but I want you to know that here, no matter what, we are glad to have you here with us, just the way you are.
I am really glad that you are finding this place helpful and I am really happy to hear that you have been able to talk with your friend as well lately. ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark Hey How are you?
Meh, got in trouble today.
This has been a hard week. Just miserable, bout pretty much everything. Tired..always. No matter how much gets done. Just can't sleep longer than 2 hours. Time goes in spells where I don't care about anything, to I'm worried about everything. Just sucks.
Woods of course. Spent about 9 hours in it. Cutting wood.
Have a good weekend, take care
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *ofering safe hugs* (you know, just in case, no pressure tho :) )
It is always really awesome to see you around here!
I....well, had a tough week with some tough feelings but I have slept like 12+ hours now so...getting better, I would say. Thank you for asking :)
I am really sorry to hear that you are having such a hard week. The lack of sleep can make things really hard for sure and it can be just frustrating. I can imagine that you are in a really harsh place mentally and/or emotionally but I just want you to know that you are not alone here, we are all here with you and, I believe, that we can get through this together. I do believe in you.
Oh, yep, going out in the nature can be a really good way of clearing your head a bit. :)
Any songs for today? :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark I'm sorry to hear you had a rough week too. Wow 12 hours?
Thanks, um, why is it the worse I feel the harder time I have talking about it? I mean, I want to but I don't, I feel like I can't. I don't know. The words are there they just won't come out.
Highly suspect - My name is Human
Like a Storm - I love the way you Hate me
Glad you're starting to feel better. Have a good rest of the weekend, take care
@mytwistedsoul I do not know if I have mentioned before but I love your profile picture ^-^
Hmm....I am really bad at talking about my feelings and just sharing if I feel bad. I am not sure why but I think it is scary to be vulnarable, to show that you might be going through a hard time. I guess it is kind of part of this whole human nature that we are trying to show we are strong. I don't know, I am not sure, that is just kind of my idea.
You know, I have actually known the song My name is Human although, I kind of forgot about it, so it was nice to get back to it and the other song was nice as well - although, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling that way.
I mean, I really just want you to know that you are not alone in this and I am always glad to hear from you here. :)
@redmark Thanks, I like rats, weird I guess. They're just really neat, smart too. They can learn the same tricks as dogs. They walk on leashes and will come looking for their "people" they have compassion and will give up the promise of a treat to save a friend. They laugh too, when they play. They get depressed too. Sorry, let my rat geek show.
So we suffer in silence. For being the smartest creatures, we sure are stupid sometimes. well I am anyway. I'd let myself drown, surrounded by people, before I'd draw attention to the fact that I'm drowning.
Music switch, 'cause I really need to fight this, I don't like where the thoughts are taking me. New one by Zayde Wolf - Cold Blooded.
I hope you have a good week, take care Thanks..for your time and your kind words.
@mytwistedsoul Yep, I have heard that they are very intelligent creatures as well and, if you ask me, they can be really cute too :)
You know, I do not think you are stupid. I think it is just part of being human, trying to hide our vulnaribilities soo...well, you are either not stupid or I am stupid together with you :P
One thing that helps me a lot to not feel so alone oftentimes is the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows. The goal of that project is ...or, was, I guess...to try to label complex and obscure feelings and such we all go through day by day but never really talk about it. Case in point, socha, it is generally describing this phenomenom of hiding our vulnaribilities in spite all of us having many for some reason. It has a cool video to it on youtube as well. :)
Also, thank you, I like that song, and I am glad to hear that you are now in the mood like that, to fight back :)
If there is anything we might be able to help you with, we are always here for you, so feel free to reach out to us here anytime. You are are not alone in this here
@redmark Thanks, I could argue that, but I've taken up enough of your time and now..doing it again..Yeah I know, but that's how I feel.
Just wanted to say that, well you said about The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrow - was looking at it last night and then you mentioned it. Just thought is was cool - great minds and all that. Which goes against what I said earlier, you are most definitaly NOT stupid. me well... But yeah so..just wanted to share that.
Done..Will leave you alone, yeah yeah, I know... Have a good week, take care
@redmark I was out running around with my grandma most of Saturday. We went shopping and had steak n shake for lunch. We brought my dad so food at work. After we were done shopping I went outside turned on some led zepplin and drew a bunch of things with chalk. I also took a walk with my pap which is one of my favorite self care methods a long with stretching. On Sunday I'm going to a baby shower which is kinda fun but at the same time lots of people so I hope I'm okay there.
Hey there @LooneyArtimus *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oh, it sounds like a really nice weekend. :)
I mean, just spending some nice time like that with your loved ones and also having some time for yourself to just express yourself drawing like that sounds really nice for sure :)
I do hope that bay shower has went well too. I can totally understand how it is one of those exciting but anxious things, I kind of feel similar about occasions like this I think. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
I am feeling okay today I am going through a break up so it's been rough. I relapsed yesterday, but I am going to push myself through thye day without self-harming today. I have been doing beauty things such as: doing my nails, doing my hair, doing my makeup, etc.
Hey there @Sav011502 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to hear from you around here!
Aww, I am really sorry to hear about that, Break ups are really though but I am really proud of you for being so strong and pushing for one whole day without SH. Also, I think it is really awesome that you are taking are of yourself while also making sure that you just look beautiful with all those beauty things :)
If there is anything we may be able to help you with, we are here for you as well so feel free to reach out to us here anytime :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Thank you so much, I appreciate your love and kindness! It's been really rough, but I have been surrounding myself with people that love me.
@redmark
I'm sorry for bothering you again.
I just wanted to thank you for all your time and patience. I know I can be trying and frustrating. I'm sorry. I got mixed signals from someone yesterday and now, well now, I'm a little messed up. The lesson I got was that while it's ok to ask for help, you can't talk about it. I'm sure that's wrong, and I'm reading too deep, being too over sensitive, but now I can't get it out of my head. But if we're not supposed to talk about things, then there's really no point, ya know?
I really enjoyed talking with you, sharing music. Thank you. You truely are a wonderful, caring person. I wish you the best in everything you do. You really are good people.
Thank you again, take care, be gentle with yourself.
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *offering safe hugs* (you know, just in case, no pressure tho)
You are never a bother, I am always glad to hear from you.
Oww...that is an interesting lesson and something I may not completely agree with.
Either way tho, I do not want to invalidate you or your feelings, and I can understand that things like this can be very disheartening and hard to go through but, no matter how you feel, I want you to know that you are always welcome here and I really am glad to hear from you no matter what. :)
Of course, no pressure, you can take a break anytime you may feel like that, but even if you do, I want you to know that you will always be welcome here, I do hope to hear from you again anyway. ^.^
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark Thank you, sorry again.
I need to change my name to sorrysoul. So it doesn't make sense to you either? Because it seemed backwards, but the wrong one was fronting and there's some comprehension problems with that one. So I thought I was just missing something. The whole point of here is to talk about things, right?
Anyway I really am sorry for taking up so much of your time. Thank you for talking with me though. I do really appreciate it. I will definitely leave you alone now, You have my word on that.
Take care
