Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Saturday, April 20th, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I was really looking forward to hear from all of you again 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? :)
Do you have anything on your mind you would like to share? I would be glad to listen. :)
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@redmark Hey How are you?
Today's not too bad at the moment. A little depressed, a little anxious. Anxiety was really bad yesterday. It's rainy and gloomy outside.
This week has just be all over the place. Just trying to find some solid ground somewhere, because it seems when I think I've got it, I start to sink. Idk, I'll figure it out.
Nah, I've shared more than enough this week.
Thank you, take care... happy easter bunny day tomorrow!
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *offering safe hugs* (just in case, no pressure)
It is always really nice to see you around here!
I am sorry I was not able to get to your last message in last week's check-in, you are not bothering me at all tho :)
I am doing...well...I am really tired, still, but I a now having the next week off from work, so hopefully I will be able to recharge a little bit now. Thank you for asking :)
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard day with anxiety yesterday but I am glad to hear that you are feeling better today. I hope the weather will get better soon as well for you there with some sunshine. :)
Hmm...it can be tricky sometimes to just find some solid footings for sure but I want you to know that you are not alone in this and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you. :)
Happy Easter to you as well and, really, you are not bothering me, don't worry, I do like talking with you around here, you are good company to have, if you ask me. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Sorry to hear you're tired, but a break will be good, yeah?
Anxiety blew up this afternoon , strong urges along with it, panic attack. I hate this sh*t! Sorry, no cussing right? Trying to distract so here I am. Sorry.
walked, walked, walked...hours this afternoon. Markers, ice, rubber bands. Just can't get away from the thought. This really sucks. There has to be a happy medium somewhere. Not too depressed, not too anxious. Sorry to come barging in your space. Gotta go for another walk.
Have a good break, take care
@mytwistedsoul Oh, yep, I was really looking forward to this break :)
Panic attacks are tough, I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard time yesterday with your anxiety. I am glad that you are sharing this here with us tho, I know it has to be hard for you and I am really proud of you for still being here with us and trying to distract yourself, you are doiung a really good job. :)
You know, I really mean that I am glad to hear from you, and anyone here. I was there...well, in a similar place, stuck in my own head and not really know what to do and just felt too much of a burden to really reach out. I mean, in some ways I still am, but a bit less anyway. I just want you to know that you are not tho and I do not want you, or anyone else, feel like that because...well...it is quite sh*tty. It may take some time for me to reply from time to time but you are never a burden or bothering me or anything like that, okay?
Besides, it is my choice if and when I answer a post here and when I do, and when I ask questions like how you are feeling I do really care :)
Oh...also, while we are at questions, I have forgot to ask it in my last reply: Any songs? :)
@redmark Hey hope you had a good weekend.
Even though you say it's not a bother, still feel like I am. Still stuck on vibrate with the anxiety. Frustrating.
Cult to Follow - Start a Fire
Nothing More - Don't Stop
Thank you, have a good week, take care
@redmark think I could use that hug now
@mytwistedsoul *hugs* (if you are still okay with it)
Never forget that you are amazing and you deserve to be supported and cared for and you are always welcome here.
Hey @redmark !! How's it going??
I'm alright. This past week, actually, the past 2 months have been a little rough. I've just finished my last exam this morning so I guess things aren't too bad right now.
My family has a vacation planned next week. We leave Monday. I don't want to go. My family and I aren't very close and I feel like spending a week with them would only make me feel worse. Also, they went on a trip last year and I didn't go then and I was perfectly fine without them. In fact, it was one of the most peaceful weeks I'd had in a long time.
I've been thinking some very dark thoughts lately, but I'm doing my best to fight them off. My next counselling appointment isn't until after the trip which sucks because some of the issues I'd like to discuss are a little urgent.
I've been really tired and low lately. All I want to do is sleep. I'm thankful that soccer is starting soon. I'll have the chance to be with people who I care about and who I think care about me too. Sometimes I feel really insecure around them because they're all amazing people, but that's okay, I think we all feel like that sometimes. Nonetheless, I'm very excited to see them at the end of May (that's when the season starts). I really hope we win th league this year!!
Anyways, that's enough of me for now. Take care!!
Hey there @CentreMid *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
I am tired, but on a week break now from work next week so, I have that going for me, thank you for asking. :)
Oh, I am sorry to hear that you have had such a rough past two month but I am really proud of you for still keeping up with everything like that and getting your last exam done now, you are doing a really good job :)
You know, I kind of get you. I do not really like to go for vactions either. Just in general I feel like nowadays most of the things I do like are avialable in my room, in my city or in a few hours away with train at worst so, unless you really want to see that world, it is more just taking you away from a place you are feeling comfortable with. Not that travelling is wrong, but definitely has downsides, espeically if you have to do it with people who may be harder to be around.
Especially, I can understand it, that it has to be even harder to go on such a trip when you have such thoughts to deal with as well. I mean, I do not now if you have wifi there os anything like that, but either way, I just want you to know that you are not alone with it and we are, and will be, always here for you. :)
Soccer sounds really nice tho. I remember that you have mentioned it earlier that you do like to do it and enjoy to be in your team and I am glad to hear that the season will start again soon. :)
I get that feeling of insecurtiy around others. I do not know why but I get that often as well. I guess it is just how we, as people are, we tend to show our "best" self to the outside world so you may not see the flaws of others while you will always be painfully aware of your flaws which can make it hard sometimes... I think you are pretty amazing tho if it matters, and you do not have anything to to be insecure about ^-^
Stay awesome!
Hello @redmark, I love the picture you attatched!
How are you feeling today? :)
I am a little tired and stressed from all the homework and chores I have today.
How has this week been for you? :)
This week has been really fun! How was your week and day?
Hey there @PurpleSnail *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
I am glad to hear that you have liked that picture. It is one of those pictures I just keep getting back to every once in a while because, well, I just love it as well. :)
Homework and chores can be overwhelming at times but I do hope that you will be able to just recharge a bit and just have some time for yourself soon :)
I am glad to hear that your week was fun tho. My week...well, I cannot complain, but now I am looking ahead for a week off of work so I can recharge as well. Thnak you for asking. ^-^
Stay awesome!
How are you feeling today? :)
I'm feeling pretty good and excited for a good day ahead
How has this week been for you? :)
Pretty great! I'm on a holiday in Hawaii now so I'm very lucky to be having a lovely time, this is my third day here and so far I've gone on a road trip, seen some lovely beaches, been to some amazing restaurants and had a nice time relaxing with my mum and step dad
Do you have anything on your mind you would like to share?
Not too much, you know I'm just a little lonely lately but that's okay and I'm working on it
Hey there @slytherinstarling123 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
We are really glad to have you here with us!
yay! I do hope that you will have an amazing day! :)
Oh....Hawaii, I have heard that it is a pretty amazing place. ^-^
I am glad to hear that you have got to spend your holiday there and that you do enjoy it there and just being around your family and exploring the island :)
Well, you are always welcome here, although I know it is not the same, and I hope that your plans will come together soon and you will not have to deal with that loneliness much more :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark I went to my grandparents today for Easter dinner because we can't have it on Easter which this year falls on queen Elizabeth's birthday. Random fact I know and I'm not even British. I didn't get to dye eggs with my family this year but I still had fun and some amazing cake
Hey there @LooneyArtimus *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oh...that is sort of a random trivia for sure but definitely an interesting information. I did not know that Queen Elizabeth was born on the 21st. I am glad to hear that you have still got to enjoy spending some time with your grandparents and, also, cakes ^-^
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Hi I'm a newbie.
Had a relapse after almost of year of no SI.
I've been fighting with depression and other issues for a few years. Lately I've just been getting more and more depressed.
Hey there @wadite *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
Welcome here! We are really glad to have you here with us.
Ohh, almost one year without SH is amazing, I am really proud of you! :)
Of course, relapses happen, and it is okay, it will not take away any of the amazing work you have done and I know that you can go for a year or even more now, after this. I believe in you anyway.
Depression can be really hard to fight, especially once it gets a grasp on you and starts to drag you deeper but I think it is really important to reach out for help and I am glad that you have decided to do so here. You are not alone in this here and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you and together we can get through this.
Stay strong and awesome!
Im about to relapse after 1 week and 3 days....
my dog brike her leg..*wahh*
i hope i feel better soon
@Cassiamay
broke** sorry
Hey there @Cassiamay *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oww....poor puppy. I am sorry to hear about it and I hope she will get better soon as well as you will feel better soon too :)
Stay strong and awesome!
