Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Saturday, May 18th, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I am really glad to hear from you once again! 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
Have you got to practice some self-care lately? Do you have anything planned maybe? :)
As a bit of side-note: I have run into a friend of mine I have not heard from for years and I will be meeting up with them today so I my replies here might be slower than usual but I will get back to you, don't worry! :)
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@redmark Hey How are you?
I'm actually feeling pretty good at the moment. The sun is shining... birds are singing. A good day in the woods. That group thing a little later. That's a kind of, sort of want to go.... But I'd be ok with just staying here too.
This has actually been an ok week. I've practically been a social butterfly. I'm still having problems with the shop. The biggest concern at the moment though is... There's nothing there... no creative streak. Like I forgot what to do. A mental black or something.
I got a new toy (chainsaw), theres a few trees I'd like to take down. So it's sort of work but it's in the woods and I want to do it so... I'm going to chalk it up to self care
That song by Jacob Lee... I really liked that. So I have another by him... Ghost. And Darkside by Shinedown. I think I'm trying to find balance through music. Don't know if thats possible. But it has been... interesting.
I hope you have a good time with your friend. Have a good weekend. Take care, yeah?
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *offering safe hugs* (just in case you might want one, no pressure)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Sorry for not being able to get you earlier, time has been really flying round with my friend yesterday and have not been able to get back here yesterday. I have had a nice day and feeling pretty good tho about it and just in general now, thank you for asking. :)
yay! I am really glad to hear that you are feeling good and that you finally are having some nice weather like that around there. I do hope that you have had a nice time with that group as well - well, if you have decided to go there but, anyway, I just hope you have had a nice time in general :)
Oh...socializing is hard so I am really proud of you for making such an amazing progress with that. Of course, it can be really draining as well so I can imagine that it can leave you a bit blank in mind in the creative sense but I am sure there i a balance of the two things that, with work, you will be able to find. To socialize to an extent which will not get you drained as much as it may have done this week. Still, it is really amazing progress! :)
You know, we have a large-ish garden - well, relatively, given that we are living in a small town, with family - so there are works like that in there as well but I noticed that when I have to cut down things and such I can kind of really get lost in that as well and just, you know, be angry on that thing I am chopping down anyway. It's kind of nice. I mean, if it makes sense. I mean, probably-stupid-rambling aside, I can totally see that as a way of self-care :)
Music is a pretty amazing thing and one of the biggest things - for me - is how it can actually make you feel emotions and help you working with your emotions. I mean, I think it is possible to find some sort of balance with music or at least it can be a helpful tool in it :)
I like the songs of Jacob Lee as well, actually I have been listening to a few of them after the last one you have shared and, yep, it is pretty awesome as well as Shinedown, although I know them for a while. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark It's good to hear that you had a good time with your friend and are feeling good in general.
We had an amazing storm last night that seem to last for hours. The lightening was just awesome. Lit up the whole night sky.
I suppose I should have clarified it was just socializing on here. It was just more than usual for me and I actually did feel good about it. But now I think I'm a little burned out from it.
Nah it's not stupid rambling and it does make sense. It's cathartic. ( that's my big word for the day) It feels good to take out whatever you're feeling on something like that. I mean ... well you can't take it out on other things. So the tree has to come down because if not it's going to cause a problem. You might as well enjoy it.
Yeah I really like Jacob Lee's music. It's kind of deep, makes me think. Ponder, even. I'm glad you like it.
Have a good week, take care.
@mytwistedsoul Oh, storms are really awesome, I do like how the lightning can light up the whole sky and the thunder as well :)
Well, it is still socializing even if it was here, online. I know it can be really draining still but I am glad to hear that you do feel good about it. It is perfectly fine to take breaks anytime still from socializing :)
Yep, I do totally agree with that. it is really cathartic to just go totally ham on whatever needs to be demolished anyway or cut out or so. Also, you are still being productive while doing so which is making it just that much awesome ^-^
It is really good to have some songs like that, some that make you think like that. I am glad to hear that you have that with the music of Jacob Lee :)
Not feeling much.
Exams, exams, stress, exams, did I mention stress?
The most self-care I've been able to do is go to bed early.
Hey there @ItsReganingRain *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you around here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are so stressed out. Exams sure can be really hard and just overwhelming at times but I am really glad to hear that you have been able to get to bed early and get some good rest for yourself as it can help a lot to stay focused through stressful times like this :)
I mean, I believe in you, you can do it, you can get through and pass those exams! :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark Thanks so much! *hugs back*
Hello @redmark.
How are you feeling today? :)
I feel a lot better today. I have begun counting calories again, and my world is kind of back to normal again. I feel somehow... whole again. Like I can do anything again. My sadness has disapeared again too. It's so weird how good I feel so great, when I do stuff like that. It feels like I'm in control again, and like I can do anything (but I have already said that, haven't I?). But I feel good. I feel great. I'm all good again.
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
This week has been like... really scary and really stressful. I think I told most of it yesterday, so I will leave it with that. Mostly bc I don't feel like digging all that stuff up again. But I had a really lovely bikeride yesterday.
Have you got to practice some self-care lately? Do you have anything planned maybe? :)
I'm going to take a long shower later, does that count as self-care? I don't really have anything planed yet, besides the shower you know, but I gotta find some food soon, if I can actually just eat what I'm supposed to, and not overeat.
Hey there @EvilRegalsReadToo *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oh....I can imagine it has to give you back a feeling of control over your life and I am glad to hear that it helps you and makes you feel so much better. I know sometimes life can be really hard and having things like this can be really helpful I just hope that you are still making sure that you are taking in enough calories - not too much, just enough. I do trust you tho, I do trust in that you know your life and you know yourself the best. :)
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard week but I am glad to hear that you are feeling better now and that you have been able to have such a nice bikeride as well yesterday :)
Having a long shower does definitely count as self-care. I mean there is just something relaxing to having a nice shower somehow. Also, making sure that you are eating, and eating healthy is really important as well :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
yeaahhhhh. I relapsed after being 144 days clean on Thursday
Hey there @QueerChristianTeen *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
We are really glad to have you here with us!
144 days clean streak is pretty awesome, I am really proud of you for that! :)
Of course, I know that relapses can be really disheartening but, sadly, part of the recoevery process usually but they just simply cannot take away all that hast work and effort you have put into that clean streak of 144 days. Nobody and nothing can take that away from you and it shows how strong and brave you are and it is something that can help you to get back to 144 days again and even more. I believe in you! :)
Also, of course, you are not alone in this, we all are here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with. :)
Stay strong and awesome!
Hi @redmark !! I'm glad you and your friend are getting together!! I hope you have a great time with them!!
I'm alright. Not much has happened today.
This past week was busy. Work is a little overwhelming. I'm thinking of asking for a gull tine position at my second job and the quit my first job if I can. I can't take much more of the whole fast food thing.
I've been asked to help a community concert band out as a percussionist. They practice every Tuesday and their concert is soon. I went this past week and to my surprise, I got to see someone I really really like. She plays trombone :) I thought I'd never see her face to face again (she has me on social media but we'd never meet up in real life that's for sure) but hey, hopefully I can get to know her more, even if there are only a few more rehearsals before the concert.
As far as self-care goes, I wanted to go for a walk today but it started raining so I might just stay in and have some popcorn or something.
Anyways, I have I for dinner soon. Take care!!
Hey there @CentreMid *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you around here!
Thank you, we have had a really nice day yesterday - although I feel kind of bad that I was not able to get to check-ins here yesterday but, overall good day :)
One of those "not much happened" boring days can be really nice to have every once in a while as well to just relax and recharge a bit :)
Oww...well, I hope that you will be able to get that full time job at your second work place. I know that you do like it much more and, really, fast food places are just...crazy - not in the good sense of the word.
That sounds exciting! I mean, it is really intersting how these things can just happen in life and just meet people "randomly" like this. Of course, your shared love to music is something that has brought you two at the same place now and I do hope that you will be able to get to know her a little bit better now and, just in general, that you will be able to just enjoy this concert and the rehearsals :)
The weather is really...well, gloomy here as well lately but it is not necessarily bad. I mean, I do like it because I am kind of a hermit, although I make myself go for walks and such still, but I still enjoy a day or two when I can just stay in "because of the weather". So, well, yep, I hope you will enjoy your day still. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark hey!
so today i am just feeling ‘meh which is kinda just...there! (if that makes any sense...)
this week was really horrible...i am talking REALLY horrible. i dont want to explain too much about it, because it had to deal with family reasons....but long story short i really dont have a family anymore \_(ツ)_/
as for self care stuff...i have not really done much, unless you count sitting and using your phone all day as self care.
yea thats all from me.
Hey there @hockey8628 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
We are really glad to have you here with us!
Oh...that sort of numbness can be hard and I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like that today.
I can imagine that going through all that had to really be draining emotionally and have left you like that and I am sorry to hear about all that - all that you have shared. I want you to know that you are always welcome here and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you - even if it might not be much, here you are not alone :)
I suppose some days really just doing nothing and allowing yourself to just recharge a little bit is really important as well and it is a way of practicing self-care :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark thank you, i know you guys are always here and thats great :)
How are you feeling today? :)
I'm not feeling the best, it has just been a funckie day today. it's probably the worst I have been in a while.
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
this week hasn't been the best, but it could have been worse.
Have you got to practice some self-care lately? Do you have anything planned maybe? :)
no I haven't I have been to busy with school, and other stuff.
Hey there @porter2927 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard day today. If there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you, you are not alone in this :)
I can imagine that such a busy week has left you drained so I hope that you will be able to get some time for yourself soon and recharge a little bit :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark I will have more time, because my school is ending soon. and thank you.
I'm having a really bad day and I want to cut. It's been 15 months since my last episode and 3 years before that. I don't even know what triggered it, which really sucks, because it means I can't understand it. I'm trying to do the right stuff, to keep myself safe. But I'm really not enjoying this and it seems all my people are either busy or going through stuff themselves.
Hey there @Chiaroscuro1 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
We are happy to have you here with us!
I am really proud of you for being so strong and brave and being clean of SH for so long :)
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. It can be really hard when something stirs up all those thoughts and emotions but I want you to know that you are not alone in it here. If there is anything we may be able to help you with we all are here for you. We can get through this together. I believe in you :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark and @NoneTheWiser - Thank you very much for your kind words. I so appreciated it when I saw it yesterday. I'm doing better today. Not out of the woods, but feeling safer. Thank you for your support.
@Chiaroscuro1 I am really glad to hear that you are feeling better today. If there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you, you are not alone in this here. :)
Hello @redmark, hope you are doing good :)
How are you feeling today? :)
I feel really bad bc of how and what I have eaten today. I succeeded with fasting for 17 hours, but that resulted in overeating of course. I took it too fare. I shouldn't have done that, and I know that now. But I have gained almost 1 kg over the last three weeks, and I gotta loose them again fast, so I gotta fast and get used to starving, bc that's what I gonna do to punish myself for putting on weight. I feel shitty about it. Like really shitty, and I need to punish myself for getting fatter and not lighter.
I still feel stressed though, even though it has been like a week since my two highly stressfull weeks. I can't seem to stress down again, and it scares me a little. Bc what if I can't stress down again? I get stressed about every little thing in my life right now, and that causes me to stress eat kind of a lot :S
I'm at my grandma's appartment today and some of tomorrow, helping her out with grocery shopping and all that jazz.
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
Very stressfull, even if it hasn't been a stressful week. I haven't done a lot, but I'm stressed anyway. I don't really know what to do about it. I am having a hard time sitting still, and walks around all the time, but not feeling calm after doing that, maybe even more stressed. So I gotta take a lot of bikerides daily, to get it out of my system.
Have you got to practice some self-care lately? Do you have anything planned maybe? :)
I gotta take a loooong bath tomorrow, and ride my bike a lot, to get all the stress and anger out of my system.
Hey there @EvilRegalsReadToo *hugs (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
I can tell that you are *very* stressed. I know that it can just really hard some days when your worries, doubts, anxieties just kick into a whole other gear and I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like that.
I know it is quite of a cliche response but deep breaths. Slow, deep breaths. Just stop for a little bit and allow yourself to - literally - vent. Also, I would like you to know that you are not alone in this. Whatever may have been stressing you out, I would be glad to listen to if you ever feel like venting and sharing it.
Either way, I know that some days are just harder than others and it is okay to give yourself a break some days and not be so harsh on yourself, you are doing well, you are getting through this one step at a time. You will get there , take your time, it is okay. - I believe in you anyway. :)
You know if it is really causing so many problems and interfering your life as much it is okay to reach out for help as well. Here, to a friend, to a family memeber. To professional help even. No pressure tho but you are not alone in this and together we can get throguh this for sure :)
Going out to the fresh air and taking a nice long bath sounds like a good way to de-stress as well ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!