Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check In: Saturday, November 23rd, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I have really missed you all. 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? :)
Self-care can be really small at times, like the above picture describes. What small things do you have that you can practice for self-care? :)
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I'm feeling calm but in a stoic way, probably due to my New meds but can't be sure.
This week had a lot of ups and downs. Still having a hard time adjusting to the changes made to therapy. Baked pepernoten (basically little cookie balls) and they came out really tasty. Had an appointment about housing options, which went well overall, I just didn't like one person's attitude. I decided to buy compression socks to help the circulation in my feet, they were supposed to arrive on Friday but they didn't.
Little acts of selfcare for me are; enjoying a cup of tea, looking outside when it's sunny, paying closer attention to little bit of nature all around me.
Hey there @Madaraismyspiritanimal *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
Oww, new meds can be tough to get used to for sure. Feel free to give feedback to your doctor prescribing it tho, sometimes it may take some time to find the right dosage for doctors :)
It sounds like you have had a long week. I am glad to hear that it has went mostly well overall. Changes are always tough tho because of the uncertainty but I hope that you will find that it is for the benefit of you. :)
Also, I am really happy to hear that your appointment about housing options went well, I can imagine that it had to be stressful.
I do hope that you will get those compression socks soon and for now that cookies look really nice - from what I have found about them on Google anyhow. :)
Those sound like really nice ways to practice self-care. I like to just sit down with a cup of tea as well and walking in the nature - or parks we have here - is really awesome as well. Also, there is just something really nice about a sunny day for sure. :)
Stay awesome!
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Hi Richard! The pepernoten seem to be very interesting cookies!
It seems to me you are taking good care of yourself despite the downs of the week, and I am proud of you. I hope you will soon get used to the new meds.
I am feeling fine.
This week was a little bit stressful because I had two presentations, but I think I did really well on them. I was also able to hang out with my friends yesterday
I'm not sure if this counts, but I talked to some friends I have not seen in a while. I'm also going to relax in my room tonight and watch YouTube.
Hey there @PurpleSnail *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
I am glad to hear that you are feeling fine :)
I am really proud of you for doing such a good job with those presentations. I have a hell of a stage freight myself, so I can imagine they had to be stressful. Also, I am glad to hear that you have got to spend time with your friends :)
Of course it counts! Spending time with people you love can be such an amazing time to recharge as well as just spending some time alone and binge-watching some videos :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
thank you for missing us , we miss you as much as you miss us well these few days my eyes are teary due to next sunday my favorite chef & his wife are bringing a tour to Japan for 9 days hope he would update thru his instagram posts . i don't know how would i react next sunday if i send them at the airport , don't wish they would see my tears ... 🙏✝️🙏
Hey there @jazmine1986 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
Oww, it is really nice of you to say that, thank you :)
Being away from someone you love for such a long time sure can be tough. It sounds really exciting tho to have him touring around like that. I am sure that he will be keep you - and others - updated through his instagram about such a special occasion. :)
Stay awesome!
Szia @redmark
This week was mostly ok. I kept experiencing some sort of numbness followed by feelings of anger, over and over again. I am now getting out of this cycle, and I feel weird and very nervous. One of my daughters is sick, so I haven't been getting much time for myself lately, nor sleep. I am looking forward to Monday.
There are a couple of things I am proud of. I managed to confess to one of my therapists things that I have been doing that are not very ok. And I wrote a couple of emails expressing my feelings over things that I find unfair. This is huge for me.
How are you doing?
Szia @admaiorasemper *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
That sounds tough. The numbness by itself can be really exhausting actually and those like fits of anger sound tough for sure. I am glad to hear that you are getting out of that cycle tho :)
Also, I do hope that your daughter will feel better soon. It is never fun to be sick and it can be quite draining to take care of someone who is sick. I do hope that you will be able to catch some rest and recharge a bit as well soon :)
Opening up is tough, especially about things like that. I am really proud of you as well for being so strong and sharing is with your therapist.
I am really bad with like confronting people as well, so it is quite amazing that you have been able to express those feelings too. :)
I....uhh....my social dysphoria regarding my gender has kind of flared up lately. I am not sure why. I would say I am generally okay, it just gives me a bit of headache.
Stay awesome!
@redmark
I am sorry to hear that your social dysphoria has flared up and it is also giving you headaches. But I am glad to see that you still feel ok all in all <3 and I hope you will get to understand what has triggered this, as it may be helpful.
* I'm sending you lots of warm hugs back *
Hey @redmark ! How's it going?
I'm not doing the best today, but that's okay. I've learned that it's okay to be misunderstood. I also had an extra early shift at work today (starting at 5:30 in the morning, yikes!) so I'm extremely tired.
This week has been a little rough, but that's also okay. I recently met someone who's inspired me to turn my life around for the better. She doesn't know she's impacted me like this, and I think it's best to keep my distance so I don't start obsessing over her, but just seeing how she has her life together kind of stuck with me. I've been searching for things to motivate me for a while now, but I think this is it. There's something about this person that's different and refreshing. I'm considering asking her about how she has it all together, but I don't want to dump all my emotions out at once or ask for help. I don't want her to feel responsible for my well-being. I don't know her very well, and it's hard to get to know her since I don't see her very often, but my best friend might be able to help, since they're in a class together. Idk, I think this will be a good thing
Sorry about the tangent, moving on haha
Regarding self care, my usual deficit is in the sleep department. So I'll stick to that. Exams are coming up and I know I'll be sleeping a lot less than I normally do (which is already quite bad), so maybe I'll aim for more sleep tonight
Oof. I've been on a bit of a rollercoaster. But I'll get through it. I think good things are going to happen.
Hey there @CentreMid *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
Well, it sure happens that people misunderstand you and that is something that is part of life, I suppose, but it can be still pretty tough none-the-less. I am glad to hear that you have such an approach to it :)
I have actually been working in a new schedule starting this week and now I have been waking up at 5:30 as well and, I feel you on that one, I am sorry to hear that you have to start your day so early as well.
She sounds interesting. It is always just such an amazing feeling to find someone so inspiring. :)
I am not the best at approaching people either but from what I have learned tho most people are actually really helpful and kind. I think it is just something that we all share, the struggles that we all have to go through sometimes, so we are understanding towards one another. Well....most of us, that is.
I mean, anyhow, it is totally fine to take your time as well and it can be helpful if you just get to know her and let her get to know you with some time given to it as well rather than opening up about everything. Also, I think it is easier to just open up slowly as well. It might just be me tho :)
I wish you the best of luck either way :)
Sleep certainly is very important and something we do tend to just overlook. I am glad to hear that you are actively trying your best to get enough sleep even at busy times like that :)
Well, I do hope that good things are coming your way as well. We are always here for you regardless! :)
Stay awesome!
hi @redmark. its been a while since ive posted to here. today im feeling stressed and a bit overwhelmed. honestly it seems like life is a bit much for me at the moment. my meds have been helping in the past but it kind of seems like things are going downhill.
my therapist has been talking to me about vulnerability, and this week has been tough. ive managed to prevent a relapse, but i still feel shitty about it, because even letting the thoughts in makes me feel weak.
my body image has been going down a bit lately, and im scared that my ED might come back. this week i told my parents that i was struggling, and that was pretty scary, but i think it was a good step.
self care for me looks like drinking tea, having a shower, doing makeup and doing my homework (sigh). im in year 12 so i cant slack off anymore.
how are you doing? i hope youre having a great day :)
Hey there @anabellamia1189 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
Welcome back! It is always really nice to hear from you around here.
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a tough day. It might be a good idea to let your doctor, who is prescribing your meds, know that they seem to be less effective lately. Either way tho, I want you to know that you are not alone in this. :)
Opening up about such topics can be really hard and can trigger so many emotions and thoughts. I am proud of you for being so strong and also for resisting those urges. I mean, you are not weak for having those urges, you are strong, you have been able to resist them and you are doing a really good job! :)
I am not exactly an expert when it comes to EDs but I can understand that it is scary that it might be coming back. Opening up about the problems to your parents is a very good first step to prevetn that tho. It is always easier to get through this together, with the help of someone :)
I really love tea as well and a hot shower can be such a nice thing as well. Also, doing your make up sounds definitely fun. I do hope that you do find time for that even at busy times like this with school. :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Hey Red - How are you?
How am I feeling? - I honestly don't know
This past week - Idk - between all the new changes here and some confrontations (if you can really call them that) Idk - feeling kind of lost and really unsure of everything. Isolation has become a problem because it's too easy for me to go back to it.
Self care - comes and goes. Some days are good and there's movies and games played. Other times - there is no thought of self care and things get pushed to the limit because I don't care. Idk - I honestly think I don't care about myself. Too many other things to worry about. I'm my own after thought.
Thank you for listening Red. I hope you have a good week and a good holiday. Take care of yourself
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *offering safe hugs* (just in case, no pressure)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
I have had a rather bad night of sleep so I am tired but otherwise okay, thank you for asking :)
Yes...it is tough. I was really sorry to hear about those as well. Even though I am not using chat rooms or feed really that much for a while now...still, it was really sudden. Either way tho, I just want you to know that we are always here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with. At least as far as I know there is no plans like that regarding the forums :)
Oh, yep, there are certainly days like that when you are not really in the mood and like headspace for self-care. I do think it is important tho taht whenever you are able to and find some time for it you do practice self-care. Playing games and watching movies does really sound like a good option for that :)
I am wondering if it may be helpful for you to have like a "self-care" schedule where you could schedule little task for like a week ahead. I mean, I do not know why but, for example, having something like "go out to the fresh air", "take a good bath" scheduled makes me more likely to actually really do them. I mean, nothing big, but it has helped me anyway :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark I'm sorry to hear you had a bad night of sleep. Makes for a long day when you're tired - at least it feels that way.
The suggestion of making up a schedule for self care is actually a really good idea. I do try to stick to a routine - so if I could start fitting in some self care on the schedule. I might be more likely to actually do it. Great Idea Red - Thank you!
I hope you get a better nights sleep tonight - Take care of yourself Red