Self-Harm Recovery Daily Checkin: Monday January 28th, 2019
Hey everyone! Welcome back to another check-in :) I'm so sorry for replying so late last week to your comments- I'll try to reply sooner this week! It's been pretty busy lately.
1) How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to share?
2) What could you do today to make the day even better than it is already?
3) If you had to delete every app but one, what would the one app be?
Take care, everyone! xx
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Hey there @rebecca947 !! I hope you're taking time to rest!! Being busy isn't always a bad thing, but sometimes you gotta breathe
I'm not exactly the best. I had an emotional episode recently. I was almost an entire week clean and then I let myself go on day 6. I really hate myself for it. I know this is all part of the recovery process, but I'm still extremely dissapointed.
One thing I could do to make the day better would be to sleep. Alternatively, I could also use a hug. I hate hugs (or just human contact in general), but I think it would be ok today. Just one though, I don't want to overdo it haha
If I had to keep only one app, I wouljd keep music. I can do without social meedia, but music is what keeps me going. There are some days where it's difficult to function without my tunes.
Anyways, that's enough for me for now. Take care!!
@CentreMid
Heya, Mid! Aww, Im so sorry to hear that :( Im glad you know that this does happen, and its not a linear journey to recovery. Theres always a lesson to be learnt from these slip ups- can you name a lesson you think youve learnt this time around? It could be about a new trigger or being reminded of a previous trigger, it could be that you need to learn new ways of coping, or try a certain distraction out etc. It might be a good idea to answer these questions when youre feeling less emotional about it. ❤️ as for now, feeling disappointed is a common emotion when we feel like weve let ourselves down. It can be due to expectations- us expecting ourselves to not slip up or relapse until day x. A hypothetical question- how many number of days would it take for you to be clean from self-harm to be feeling alright with relapsing? If thats convoluted, Im sorry! Let me rephrase- day 6 you relapsed and you feel really guilty and disappointed. What if you relapsed on day 16? Do you think youd feel just as bad?
*sends a hug your way* ❤️ also, *sends some sleep your way* 💤 😴
Music! Thats an awesome app to keep- definitely not biased at all!
Take good care of yourself, and I hope youll feel better soon. Remember, relapsing is just a part of the journey, and is just as valuable as the days you go clean. xx
1) How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to share?
the first day after years where it is hard for me to not relapse. every second is a fight.
2) What could you do today to make the day even better than it is already?
i do think at this point the only thing i can do to make it better would be going to sleep early or at least study physics.
3) If you had to delete every app but one, what would the one app be?
spotify. i need music hahah
@dynamicHemlock1736
Heya, Hemlock! Its great to see you again- I feel like we havent talked on the checkins for a while (unless I totally forgot previous weeks that youve answered, in which case Im so sorry! Busy mind, forgetful mind.)
Aww :( do you want to talk about it? Were all here for you, either in PMs or on the forums :) but no pressure, and I can understand if you dont want to, as its public. :) how are the urges now? What have you tried to distract yourself with? And remember, even if you relapse, its alright. Youve made it so far into your journey already- one second, one minute, one hour of not self-harming is amazing to hear. Its already an amazing achievement.
Ooh, I hope youve slept or studied physics! What topic are you studying and whats the most interesting for you? :)
Haha yes to music! Spotify is awesome, premium seems great too, though Ill never pay for it :p
Take good care of yourself- youre worth it ❤️
@rebecca947 thank you for your kind words! its true, i havent been around much on my member account the past months! great to see you.
it was just hard for me yesterday because i felt like the whole world is just against me and wants to bring me down and sometimes it is really hard to fight against that and just keep swimming. I gladly, did not relapse.
i am currently studying mechanics! and i ended up sleeping instead of studying, but the most interesting part of it is probably doing graphs for it 
hope you have a lovely day.
@rebecca947
Hey, hey! Take as much time as you need 
I'm doing okay thankies. My birthday is coming up but I'm trying to avoid thinking about it to be honest.
Erm, also I'm supposed to be in the process of writing a song but I suck at piecing lyrics together :")
To make today better hmm, done homework 
Pffft, if I had to delete every app but one, I most certainly would save 7cups, only my all time favourite
Anyways, careo
@LittlebluP
Heya, P! :) I love your username haha and thank you! ❤️ this is a start, replying within 24hrs :p
Ooh, okie. Ill keep my mouth shut with you, if thats what you want :) it sounds like you have to write a song- is this a project or something? :o and do you have any ideas of what you want the song to be about, any lyrics you like the sound of, etc.? Or do you have a general plan already for the song? I wonder what your process is for songwriting, partly because it might help you and partly because I cant help being curious!!
Youve done homework already, or you would finish homework to make the day better? :p both options are great! Is it done now anyhow?
Hahaha you like the 7 Cups app I see! Do you prefer app or browser? Ahh, so many questions for you! Take care of yourself too xx
@rebecca947
Hehe, thankies! Your doing a great job already
It's okay I'm just not used to anyone saying anything lol. Yesh, it's a project for school and it is suppossed to be about telling a story, of what I have been through in general or a specific event in my life. I've no clue where to start aha, I feel like I'm saying a poem more than a song when I do try XD
Nuuuup, I haven't done my homework, oopsies! I'm supposed to but I'm too good at procrastinating it appears
Hm definatley prefer the browser, I just like apping when I'm at school Thank youuu Xx
@LittlebluP
Ooh! Well sometimes I feel like song lyrics without the melody can sound like a poem! Unfortunately Im not good at music at all, so I cant really say much else, but the best of luck!!! ❤️ Have you thought of an idea of what you want to sing about? Or any songs that inspire you and take things away from them...
Hahaha seems like you and I would earn $1mil a day, each dollar symbolising each second we procrastinate! If only it was a paid job...
Ahh, cheeky little grin there I see! Study hard and 7 Cups hard ;) jk, study harder! 😛
@rebecca947
Yesh, I kinda thought that but I don't know, I'll probably use the music from a song that is already existing but add my words
I think mental health struggles will be what I write about but still unsure. Pffft if it were a paid job, we'd be the richest in the world it seems lol
Studying, I don't know what that is 
I'll get around to it, maybe, I hope XD