Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-in: Thursday January 2, 2020!
Hello, everyone! Can you believe it's 2020 already? I hope this holiday season was a good one for you. If it wasn't, you've survived regardless. That's a big deal, and I'm so proud of you for sticking through it and reaching the other end.
1) How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to share?
2) How do you plan on making this new year your best year yet? What are some guidelines/markers you can look out for to let you know you're still headed down the right path?
3) What is your favourite new year's related pun? Let me know!
I hope you all have a wonderful day today. Remember that you are important and special and loved. Take care of yourselves. xx
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Not doing so great today, keep getting the feeling I'm being judged for the way I sleep, to bed too early, waking up too early, every morning and evening. Got fed up with it.
Not sure about this year, trying to find something I can find fulfilment in, starting volunteering work and living on my own
@Madaraismyspiritanimal
Hello, Madara! Nice to see you again. Being judged for our habits and choices are never fun or easy to deal with. Having other people criticise our lifestyle and choices can feel a bit intrusive for some, frustrating for others. The way you feel is definitely understandable. I wonder now that you've had some time away from the situation, how did you handle the situation?
That's alright, it can be hard and overwhelming to think about the entire year and our goals/plans. Best of luck with volunteering and living on your own! Try not to put too much pressure on yourself for all your goals. Take care and thanks for checking in with us! xx
@rebecca947
I'm doing fine today. I don't have anything to do so I think I'm just going to read today. I already finished two books this break and I'm trying to make it three!
@PurpleSnail
Hello, Snail! Glad to hear you're doing well. When is break over, and do you think you can make it to 3?! What books have you read and are reading? Would you recommend them? I'm interested in exploring new books, especially fiction. Hope the day went well! xx
Hey @rebecca947 !
I actually made it four 
The books I read were We Are Okay, Aristotle and Dante Discover The Secrets Of The Universe, Bloom, and Scythe. They were are really good!
1) How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to share?
So far I'm doing pretty good. This morning I watched Runaways with my brother, I feel kinda bad that I spent all morning doing nothing. He and my mom went out to get his books for school so I have the house to myself for a few hours. I decided to use a face mask (which I have never done but it was like $5). It did not go great. I put the stuff on and then I knocked the thing into the sink. It was all glittery and pink in the sink and my hands were already covered in the stuff so I thought 'its fine I'll clean it up later.' So I washed my hands and set the timer. After a while it felt like it was pulling on my face so I started peeling it off. At first I got a lot off but then I was peeling a million little spots left on my face, I thought water would help. It just made it harder to get off. There's all this pink glitter in my sink and I've still got some shiny bits on my face and I just look up into the mirror and I start laughing so hard I can barely breathe. Honestly, I think this is a great start to my year. I'm also almost a month clean so woot woot.
2) How do you plan on making this new year your best year yet? What are some guidelines/markers you can look out for to let you know you're still headed down the right path?
I think I just need to be concious of my emotions and not let them control me. Its really hard for me sometimes to even identify what it is I'm feeling and at that point my emotions have already taken control of me. Additionly, accepting my thoughts, feelings, and emotions for what they are.
3) What is your favourite new year's related pun? Let me know!
I knew I needed to get my eyes checked, but luckily this year I have 2020 vision
@fairmindedRaspberries1389
Hello, Raspberries! I'm glad to hear your day went well! What's Runaways about? Sometimes, we all need a day where we do nothing but lounge about. Oh my, that face mask sounded like it was a big mess! Maybe try a different one next time, hey? Haha some face masks are great, they're just literally a thin sheet mask or clay mask. I've never tried clay masks, but sheet masks I enjoy. Not sure if they do anything, but they feel and smell great. Maybe try one of those if you're willing to give face masks another go? I'm very proud of you for being almost a month clean! That is some amazing, awesome work! <3
I love what you're trying and aiming to do. It sounds like you know yourself quite a bit already, which is another amazing start. As someone in my life once said "You have a right to feel what you feel". That's really helped me be able to validate my own emotions and not judge myself for my reactions and emotions. I hope that may help you, too, or that you find a mantra or belief that works well for you. As for identifying emotions, there are emotion charts all over the internet that you can search up for. Maybe having a look at the chart every time you feel any sort of emotion could help? These are just suggestions, of course. I hope you'll find your path and actions to take soon! Best of luck with it. An amazing goal to try to accomplish.
Hmm, I wonder what your pun will be for 2021 ;)
Take care of yourself. Lovely to see you and hope to potentially see you in more checkins! xx
Not the best time - I recently relapsed in my self harming. I've been under major family stress and turned to self harm to cope, which I havent done in a very long time.
The issue is, it actually made me feel better and did help me cope, but I feel so bad that it was effective. I feel better I just dont want to turn back to self harming
@LyssSky03
Hey, Sky. I'm really sorry to hear that :( Family stress seems like it could be a big trigger for you, and very understandably. Congratulations on not relapsing for a long time, however. Major accomplishment to try to keep and remember in our minds! Especially in a time where we have relapsed.
I understand the turmoil you seem to be in- you don't want to keep doing it, but it still helps. I wonder how you tried to cope with family stress before you turned to self-harm? And how did self-harm differ to help you feel better that other coping tools didn't? Was it the pain, was it the forgetting, was it the numbing sensation self-harm gave you that your other tools didn't? And once we've identified that, how could we change our coping mechanisms to fulfil our desires without harming ourselves?
And always remember, you're not back at square one. You've learnt tools along the way to help you cope. Take good care of your wounds and of yourself emotionally, Sky. I'm thinking of you. xx
It's definitely been rough. I don't know why but just when I thought I was genuinely improving I feel like I'm getting worse. It's very discouraging to feel like this HOWEVER I'm still going to put in the maximum effort because I feel like that's all I can really do. Happy New Year 
@wellthatwaseasy
Hello, Easy. Happy New Year to you, too! I'm glad you're still going to try to improve your life despite the lack of encouragement you're being shown. It's hard especially when we can't figure out the reasoning behind things- it can be harder to accept them, it can be harder to change things to help mould into getting better. It can be hard to understand why these things happen, but they do happen sometimes, unfortunately. Has anything in your family dynamic or environment changed, any recent illnesses, hormones? I wonder what you plan on doing to try to improve? I'm sure you can do it- you've done it before and you'll do it again. I believe in you. You've got this. <3 "You have to do your best under the circumstances you're in." And it sounds like you're doing just that. xx
