Self Harm Recovery Daily Check-in : Tuesday, October 20th, 2020
Hello there beautiful beings <3
I hope that your week has started well ! If not, hang in there <3
For the check in today, a little quote : Maybe you are searching among the branches for what only appears in the roots - Rumi. I like the idea that we all have ressources in ourselves that maybe sometimes we can't see. I also loving be able to pick those qualities out and tell someone just how great they actually are !

Check in questions :
1) How are you doing today ? Anything that you'd like to share with us ? :)
2) Imagine yourself as a tree, what would you look like ?
3) What is hidden in your roots ?
Song recommendation of the day : No saving me by Philmon Lee feat Lindsey Stirling
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@Slizzy564 Hey - tbh I'm not doing so good lately. There's alot of things that just keep coming at me and I'm really having a hard time keeping my head above water
I'd probably be a gnarly twisted tree with broken branches and the names of a dozen people carved onto my bark. Mementos of the ones who caused pain
My roots would hide my soul and my heart because they need to be kept safe from the people who caused the damage to my bark
@mytwistedsoul
Hi there ! First of all, thanks for all the replies on the check in, that's very thoughtful of you <3
I'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time. I get the feeling of only just being able to keep your head above the surface. Though I like to think that if you're still managing to do that, then it proves just how strong you are ! Hang in there easier times will come ! Sending hugs your way if you want some <3
Once again, you seem like a tough one ! I'm sorry to hear about your broken branches and the pain that others have done to you. Maybe with time, you'll be able to grow some new branches ?
That makes sense ! I'm glad to hear that your soul and heart are safe and well hidden in that way :)
Thanks for checking in, take care <3
@Slizzy564 You're welcome - I hope I didn't step on any toes or cross any lines. Idk - I just wanted to be helpful today. I know in some checkin's sometimes people don't get replies. But if I overstepped - I'm sorry
Thank you - I'm hoping that things do get easier. I mean in some way it has to right?
Thank you for your reply - I hope you take care too
@mytwistedsoul
It's fine ! It's nice that people get several replies to their posts :) As you say sometimes they never get replies but I always make sure that I reply to everyone :) Though I have to admit that I got round to replying to this check in later than I expected so thanks for filling in ! Also I find that, by helping others, we help ourselves !
I don't know if it has to, but it's possible ! I mean there will always be ups and downs, that's life. But it also means that if you're down, then you can always go up :)
@Slizzy564
1) How are you doing today ? Anything that you'd like to share with us ? :)
It's been an emotional day today ive been good but eh sometimes. Um I started cleaning my house regularly so I'm proud of that plus I went grocery shopping alone today. I just don't feel appreciated right now idk.
2) Imagine yourself as a tree, what would you look like ?
Um I don't know but I picture just a big oak tree idk why they're pretty I guess that's why.
3) What is hidden in your roots ?
My pain and meaness. I'm way too nice and let people walk all over me and unlimited chances even if I know they are going to do the sam things to hurt me.
Have a wonderful day lovelies.
@itidc Hey :) I'm sorry to hear that it was an emotional day. I hope today is better for you. Cleaning house regularly is something to be super proud of - good for you! I should probably try to start doing that myself. Grocery shopping - wow - thats about an adventure isn't it? I'm sorry you're feeling unappreciated - thats a tough feeling to have. Sometimes just a simple thank you from someone is all you need isn't it? Someone to notice the good things we've done through the day
An oak tree - they are magestic in my opinion. Tall strong trees. A wonderful choice - they definitely are pretty
It's hard when people take advantage of our being nice. They say this is where boundaries help - but they are so hard to do. Especially when it comes to friends and family. Hopefully with time those boundaries will get easier for both of us
I hope you have a good day and take good care of yourself
@itidc
Hi there !
Sorry to hear about your emotional day, though there seems to be good and bad in those emotions. Congrats on the house cleaning and food shopping, those are good chores to get out of the way ! Feeling unappreciated ? About something precise or just a general feeling ?
They are pretty ! They also seem to be strong as if we could rely on them or maybe that's just my feeling.
I'm sorry to hear about that. I do understand how it can be hard to stand up for yourself, especially if these people have made a habit of walking all over you. Though I do often say that there are never enough nice people on this planet :
Thanks for checking in, take care <3
@Slizzy564
How are you doing today ? Anything that you'd like to share with us ? :)
I am doing okayish....I am sick
2) Imagine yourself as a tree, what would you look like ?
A beautiful tree....with flowers.
3) What is hidden in your roots ?
My pain..
@AlwaysForYou197 Hey :) I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling sick. I hope you're feeling alittle better now. Take time to rest when you can and drink lots of fluids to stay hydrated - sneak in some self care if you're like me and have a hard time doing it
A beautiful tree with flowers - the tree that came to mind is a Mimosa tree - also called a pink silk tree. They look like this :) If you're interested - no pressure of course
https://ih0.redbubble.net/image.88112699.2005/flat,1000x1000,075,f.jpg
It's hard to have to hide your pain. I hope that here at least you can share some of it - to have an outlet for it here. To feel heard and understood - to know you're not alone
Take good care of yourself
@AlwaysForYou197
Hey hey :)
Oh no ! I hope you feel better soon, please do take care of yourself <3
Hum a tree with flowers ? Makes me think of cherry blossoms ! Very pretty indeed :)
Our pain is something very personal to us. I mean it's something that only we can feel and so it's also hard to share. I understand that yours is hidden in your roots.
Thanks for checking in, take care <3
@Slizzy564 hey there Slizzy!
1) How are you doing today ? Anything that you'd like to share with us ? :)
Today I feel terrible...I am unsure how to tell it in English, but I feel overwhelmed by everything that surrounds me. Like, there is too much evil and badness in that world and I can barely see any good...
2) Imagine yourself as a tree, what would you look like ?
I try to imagine myself as a cherry blossom tree - a samurai tree, standing up no matter which emperor or daimyo is reigning now or which clan is winning or losing the fight :)
3) What is hidden in your roots ?
Oh, it depends in which part of roots would you like to look.
@inventiveAcai3503
Hi there !
I'm sorry to hear that you're not feeling well. The world around us can be pretty overwhelming and sadly we tend to look at the negative stuff before we can see the more positive ... Though, in these situations, I believe in 2 things : 1) there's no shadow without light, even if the shadow is gigantic there's still a light somewhere and 2) if the world around us seems dark and gloomy, maybe we can find the goodness inside of us instead ?
Cherry blossom !!! They're so pretty ! And I love your explanation, a very strong mindset you have there ;)
Oh believe me, I'm curious so I'd like to look at all the roots :) But only if you want me too ! :)
Thanks for checking in, take care <3
@Slizzy564 hi, thank you too for caring and reading to my entry <3 if I may ask, how on earth do you have so strongness and love in you to help us here and probably out of Cups?
I feel slightly better, happy to hear you loved the mindset owo it has got its specific Japanese name as I recall, but I actually forgot...
@inventiveAcai3503
Oh you're more than welcome <3 I love reading everyone's entries :) As for helping others, it's just kinda my thing ? I love helping out, though sometimes I'm a bit clumsy while trying to do so x) I often say I have lots of love to give and no one to give it to, so here I am :)
It's good to hear that you're feeling better even if it's only a little bit ! Hang in there my friend and if need be, you know where to find me :) Are you talking about sakura ?
@Slizzy564 nooo, sakura is a Japanese name for cherry blossom tree. I thought rather about something to describe my mindset - sadly I totally forgot owo maybe I will find the word and share it with you in the next check-in! Japanese peeps consider a lot of things as a ways of life, a style of thinking, like that, and I wanted to share with you that name and my thoughts...however I forgot XX take care love! Maybe next time I will remember. Love you and all of peeps here in that thread! Please hang on!
@inventiveAcai3503
Oh sorry I misunderstood, didn't have my brain plugged in the right way x) Oh sure if you find the word, I'd love to hear about it :) Don't put too much pressure to find it though, sometimes we find things when we stop looking for them :)
Take care, I'll look forward to hearing from you soon <3