Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-in: Wednesday February 6th, 2019
Hello SHR warriors!
Welcome to your Wednesday check-in! We have reached the middle of the week, so I think it is a great time to discuss how your week has been so far?
I know there has been a lot of mention in the SHR community about relapses, and I wanted to reiterate a point thats been made quite often, but I also heard from my lecturer this week, which is that life isn't a straight road - you will have ups and downs and that is totally okay! 
Recovery is not linear, and at times we may have relapses but that doesn't mean you are any less strong!
Here are a few questions, that you can use as a guidelines if you are struggling to check in:
♥ How are you today? Tell us the up downs and everything in between!
♥ Is there anything that you are finding difficult today?
♥ What is your favourite self care activity?
I look forward to speaking to you all in the comments! 
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Emma
hey! nice to meet you.
♥ How are you today? Tell us the up downs and everything in between!
i am doing okay i guess. had an exam today and went home and relaxed a bit. There s a kind of "prom" coming up soon, but am not sure whether i should go or not yet!
♥ Is there anything that you are finding difficult today?
well, i dont really have friends to talk to or who ask me how my day was so i feel a bit alone... (sorry for sounding so hopeless 
)
♥ What is your favourite self care activity?
singing! because then i feel like my voice is actually heard
♥ How are you today? Tell us the up downs and everything in between!
My day today is great. It's my cheat-day, so I do whatever I want, I don't really work out and I feel fine.
♥ Is there anything that you are finding difficult today?
I had to go to my social training-group alone, bc my mentor was sick with the flu, sadly. That was weird and a bit frightening, bc I haven't gone there alone before. But it was ok when I got there, actually nice.
♥ What is your favourite self care activity?
Working out usually. Or taking a warm bath, that's very good too.
♥ How are you today? Tell us the up-downs and everything in between!
Hi! today was okay, this week has been way better than last week and I haven't had any breakdowns but I'm extremely stressed out because of midterms
♥ Is there anything that you are finding difficult today?
I'm having trouble finding the motivation to do my work even though I know it's extremely important I do it, it's just like I can't do it. I don't know how to explain it.
♥ What is your favorite self-care activity?
I love to do a face mask, have candles lit, and have my essential oil diffuser going.
I have actually been pretty focused on recovery lately, and working really hard to not mess with or worsen my injuries which... is hard. But i am trying to act based on what I know Others would say/believe instead of what I feel or want since I know my own thoughts about this are pretty wacked by now. So... its been okay lately. Some highs. Some lows. And a lot of trying to get by. I know I can get to a more stable place where harm is less often or less on my mind, since Ive done that before, it just seems like quite the long trip to get there. And lets not even mentioned how scary it is to think further ahead of Actual Recovery. That... Ill leave that for later. I cant really imagine ever getting to be Fully Recovered and Done with self-harm. :/
Today was not great. No matter how much positivity I surround myself with, no matter how much I vent and get advice, I can't find another way to cope with my anxiety and guilt. Taking it all out on myself always seems to make me feel better for the moment, like I've sufficiently punished myself for being an awful person. I never used to cut as much as I am right now. And it scares me. It used to be exclusively my arms, but now it's becoming my legs, and deeper. Scars used to fade away with time, but I think I'm leaving permanent ones now. I really, really want to get better, but I only seem to be digging myself down deeper.