Self-Harm Recovery Weekly Check In: Mon 1st - Sun 7th, 2019

@bear228 Hey How are you? I hope you're feeling better. It's hard getting sick - especially when it's so nice outside.

I think my favorite color is blue. It seems most of my shirts are that color. I'm not sure why.

I'm just hoping this week is better than last week.

Have a good week - take care.

Hey! I hope that you are feeling better!

1. What are the highs and lows of your day?

It is quite specific to the day. If there is a high, it typically involves some sort of communication between friends and family right now. Lows seem to be when I am alone - especially at night. It isn't always this way though. Sometimes alone time is good, but it just hasn't been working well for me lately.

2. What is your favourite colour and why?

My favourite colour is pink. I like how it can be a comfortable and cozy colour, as well as a bold colour when you want it to be.

3. What plans do you have in moving forwards?

I want to start turning my alone time into something productive rather than something that brings me into a looped thought process. I have been working towards making my room a more comfortable place for me to be. I might work on organizing myself for university in the fall this week. I am thinking that considering my future may be helpful for me right now, as well as making sure I am ready when September approaches! Organization may help to comfort me in such a significant change, as well as to hopefully distract myself from negative thoughts.

4. Do you have any goals for the upcoming week?

As I mentioned above, I am mostly going to try to work on organization for this week. It is the best distraction I have found, and I could really use that right now! I also have a job interview this week for a second part-time job, so I am going to try to take some time to prepare myself for that tomorrow.

5. Is there anything else you would like to share?

I am hoping that I am able to take some steps forward in my recovery process this week rather than backwards, and I am sure everyone else on this forum feels the same way. That being said, I hope that everyone else reading this has a great week as well!

@bear228

Hi there!

1. What are the highs and lows of your day?

In the last few days I have actually been experiencing a sort of middleground, with no highs and no lows.

2. What is your favourite colour and why?

Not sure. I love blue, as it is the colour of the sky. Green too, as it is the colour of trees and nature. And yellow, as it is the colour of the sun and warmth.

3. What plans do you have in moving forwards?

I have been in a very dark place recently, and I do not want to go back there. I want to work on having better relationships with people. There has been a breach of trust in my relationship with my therapist, from both sides. I want to work on this too.

4. Do you have any goals for the upcoming week?

Keeping myself busy, staying out in the nature, taking care of myself.

5. Is there anything else you would like to share?

Nothing really, thank you for reading this :)

@bear228 hi.

1. What are the highs and lows of your day?
High is that I had a really good talk with my therapist and my mentor (together all three). It was really good to have my therapist tell my mentor stuff I find hard to talk about, but was important for my mentor to know and vice versa. Had a really good talk with my mentor after that too, just the two of us, and we made a good plan for me stopping self-harming: or more like, not even start doing it after stopping. We talked about what triggered my self-harm, and how to prevent it.
Basically arguements with my mom and others (that makes me sad or angry) is a really big trigger, so I try to not argue with anyone, but when it's something I'm really passionated about I WILL argue. And it's hard to not get sad, when ppl, and my mom, get really ugly (in their way of arguing). The key here is to stop arguing before it gets ugly (which I think is really hard), and talk about important stuff when both are calm and clearminded (not start talking about things that irritate you when you argue).
The other thing triggering me is overeating. Any overeating will lead to me punishing myself by self-harming, and as I can't not overeat it's a hard nut to crack. But if I eat more "normal" (I have an ED) I won't overeat, and then I won't self-harm. But then I will go into depression bc I'm scared of getting fat, so any of the ways ends up with me feeling like shit and eventually self-harm, as I tend to self-harm a lot when I feel depressed.
And the low is that I never got to tell her (my mentor) about a job I would like to have (the spot is open right now). I'm sad I didn't get to tell her, but I can always tell her next week and hope the job is still open. However she is very excisted about another job she and a colleage has found for me. We are visiting the place at the 23rd July, and we are getting to the place (but not going inside) next week (for me to figure out how to get there with the trains and busses and all that jazz). But I will tell her next week. I have to. I know we already have a plan, but I would REALLY like this job I have found as I could work with bigger animals like dogs and cats instead of only smaller pets in a pet shop.

2. What is your favourite colour and why?
I have always told myself that I really liked greens, but truth be told I actually really like orange and red. I really don't know why, orange just makes me feel calm.

3. What plans do you have in moving forwards?
My plans for moving forward? That's how I understand the question at least. Anyhow, I'm not really moving forward. Or I'm trying. My mentor and a colleage has found a job for me, and I begin with two times a week, two hours a day. I think that's a good beginning. And a way of achieveing something.

4. Do you have any goals for the upcoming week?
Getting through it and not self-harm all too bad. It's my grandma's birthday on thursday, and I'm gonna sleep at her and my grandpa's place from wednesday to thursday, so that's all good. I have Social Skill Training tomorrow though, something I'm not looking forward to, as it kind of sucks, but I'm a part of it now and I gotta stay until it ends in December. I also gotta write a lot over this month, as it's Camp NaNo and I wanna finish the third book in my series SOS. I'm really looking forward to finish, as I gotta be ready for writing the fourth book in November (NaNoWriMo).

5. Is there anything else you would like to share?
Not really, I think I have got around everything.