Self-Harm Recovery Weekly Check In: Saturday, August 10th, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I am really happy to hear from you once again. 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
Is there anything on your mind you would like to share or just vent about? I would be glad to listen! :)
As usually, my check-in thread is open for you for the whole week and I am still off of work next week so I will be able to be around more than usual and get to you quick. I mean, I am always glad to hear from you. :)
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@redmark hi!
How are you feeling today? :)
I feel ok. Could be a lot worse. I'm trying to figure out how to loose weight, and still eat something (hurray, I have an ED!). So I have begun working out a lot and all that jazz, and I am begining at a boxing class next month! I'm sooo excited! I'm so very much looking forward to it, to gain muscles and hopefully loose weight too! I'm gonna be toned for the FIRST time ever in my life (on my arms, I had pretty toned legs, when I was still doing horsebackriding)! :D I'm sooo looking forward to it! :D
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
This week has been good. I know I have overeaten some days, but it's ok, I guess. I have punished myself for it (by working out like crazy, but not self harming, yaaay!) and I'm done with it. I have, as I said, not self harmed at all and haven't for nearly three weeks now, so I feel really good about myself. I know I will always have the urge, but it's a lot smaller than earlier :)
I have had the first day on my new job, at a Pet Shop, and I am still really excited about it. It was a really great day and I really like the job. As for now I'm only working 4 hours a week, and only feeding and "watering" the animals, but it's all good. I like being there and I like the ppl there. I don't know how to describe how much I like my job. I know I will have to work more at some point, but as long as I feel like I do now about it, I'm 100% ready for working more hours and days.
Is there anything on your mind you would like to share or just vent about? I would be glad to listen! :)
Nothing I haven't shared already :)
Hey there @EvilRegalsReadToo *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oww, EDs sure can be tough. Sadly though I am not exactly an expert with those and the last thing I want to do is to say something triggering or just give straight up bad advice here so...just please take good care of yourself, I do really believe in you! :)
Boxing sounds really nice tho. I have heard that it is actually a real full body work-out because you have to be really fast on your feet as well as with your fists. Sounds really interesting actually - also there is the aspect that sometimes I really feel like it would be nice to just have one of those boxing bag thingies to just beat it up to get some built up stress and what-not out of my system. :P
So, yep, either way, sounds like a nice way to get some extra exercise :)
I am really proud of you for not self harming. I know it can be tough at times but making it three weeks without self-harming is just such an amazing thing to achieve and I am glad to hear that you do feel that the urge is getting weaker as well. I mean, you are doing a really amazing job there but, of course, no pressure on you but I am still really proud of you :)
Also, I remember that you have mentioned your new job and it have really just sounded like an amazing opportunity to work with animals. I am really happy to hear that it has turned out just like that as well. It sounds really nice as well that you have got a light schedule to begin with for now and just slowly start to get on more and more of the tasks around there. I do hope that you will be able to have a nice job there and enjoy your time there ^-^
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Hi awesome!
Today I feel quite numb once again. Lazy. Sleepy. I took a sleeping pill yesterday after three orrible nights. I slept a lot but it is still affecting me during the day.
It has been a weird week, lots of ups and downs. Good news is that I managed those downs better. Also, my mood track app after three months of 'Indication of a severe depressive episode' has now given me a different result, 'Significant burden without evidence of a depressive episode'. This is... huge!
What about you?
As usually, I wish you an awesome weekend!
Hey there @admaiorasemper *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
You know it is not exactly something I am used to to be called "awesome" but it is really flattering, thank you very much. ^-^
Oww, that sounds rather annoying. On the other hand tho I am really glad to hear that you have got some well needed sleep, hopefully these effects of the pills will be gone soon as well. :)
yay! That is really awesome tho. I am so happy to hear that you are feeling so much better - or, well, at least according to your mood app, but still, it sounds really awesome. I can imagine it has to be such an amazing feeling as well to see your progression just manifest itself like that, I am really proud of you for doing such an amazing job ^-^
Well, actually not much is happening with me lately. I am at the end of my first week - out of two - off of work now and I was not doing that much but I do feel relaxed and refreshed for sure. Maybe next week I will do more, like, interesting stuff - or maybe not, knowing myself :P
Either way, thank you for asking :)
Stay awesome!
Heya @redmark
How are you? I hope you get to enjoy some of that off from work :)
I'm okay today I stayed up late last night so I'm mostly just tired.
My week was kinda long and drawn out and overall bland . There were some new people at work, but that's about it.
Actually, I did have a soccer game on Monday. My team lost our winning streak (we haven't lost a game yet this season until past game) and I'm low-key salty about it. I mean, it was bound to happen at some point but we lost to one of the bottom teams in the league. I wouldn't mind it so much if it was the 2nd or 3rd place team but this was a new low for us. Ah well, We're still at the top!
I've been trying to let my wounds heal, and they're doing a pretty good job of it too. They're almost scars now. The hard part about taking care of them is how itchy they get. I get it, it's part of the healing but it's so annoying because I have to leave them alone.
Anyways, I've got to head out soon. Please take care!
Hey there @CentreMid *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
I am just relaxing, I suppose, not doing much worth mentioning but I do definitely feel refreshed, thank you for asking. :)
That is annoying tho when you just feel a bit like sluggish thoughout the day because of the lack of sleep - I do hope that you will be able to catch up on that sleep tonight or maybe even take a quick nap to make up for it :)
Well, when I was playing soccer I was actually in pretty much the bottom team of our league but I know it can be tough still to lose a match especially if you have been winning a few before. I mean, it can really just be such an amazing boost of confidence and just mood to get some wins and I know that it can be disheartening to lose at the end but, just as you have mentioned, you are still there, on the top and really, nothing can take that away from you and that will always be there to show how amazing of a team you are and I am sure that you will be just back winning with the next match as well! ^-^
I think there are creams that can help ease that itchy feelings. I know that there is one that we have here in Hungary that certainly helped me a lot while my wounds were healing I do not think you would have the same thing where you are at but I think it is worth a try to look for some cream like that - it really did wonders for me anyways :)
Stay awesome!
Rn I'm very frustrated. I joined this as I am going through a problem with self harm. I wrote a post but it said it sounded like I was thinking about hurting myself rn so the entire post got deleted.
How am I supposed to get advice to help me with my problems when I cant talk about my problems in the first place?
@ConfusedDoggoLover
Hi there, welcome here! I am very sorry your post has been deleted, I get how frustrating this can feel... There are specific rules about how to write on this forum, you may want to check them. It is just to be sure that nobody get triggered... Sometimes all it needs is putting a trigger warning at the beginning of your post. I hopw this will not stop you from writing here. It is a lovely community and we are all here to help each other. I am here to listen to you.
Hey there @ConfusedDoggoLover *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
Welcome here! We are really glad to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. We do have some automatic filters in place to avoid possible triggers for others and it is sometimes too sensitive, for sure - I am sorry to hear that your first experience have been like that here tho.
I mean, I would like you to know that we are here for you and you are not alone in this and we are here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with. - Hoping that you will not get caught with that filter in the future, sadly I am not exactly always sure how it works either tho...
Either way, I do hope to here more from you around here!
Stay strong and awesome!
Hey there @Love4All525 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really awesome to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a tough day. I do hope that you will be able to get some time for yourself to recharge today :)
Disney World sounds really fun! I can imagine though that after such a hard night it had to be tough as well to just be around all that people and just to try to stay in the moment and enjoy it. I do hope you were able to have at least some nice memories and fun experiences while being there tho. :)
That is tough. It sure can be hard on those around us as well to see us go through all this. It is not always easy to find the right words or really do the right thing when you see someone going through such things especially if it is someone you do love. It might have come from good intentions tho, just him being worried for you wanted you to get the right help as well as probably being drained at the moment as well. The hard thing with that is that good intentions can backfire and that is why listening is generally really important. I do hope that his reaction was more of just an impulsive one rather than meaning it as is. At least he does sound like someone who cares about you and someone who wants the best for you even if he might not be sure how to best help you at times. Have you tried to discuss this with him?
Just to see where he is coming from and why he have said that. I mean, it would probably worth a try but there is no pressure on you, of course.
Stay strong and awesome!
