Self-Harm Recovery Weekly Check In: Saturday, July 20th, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I have really missed you all. 
I really do root for you :)
⭐ How are you feeling today? :)
⭐ How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
⭐ What is your favourite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately? :)
My thread is open for you anytime, although it might take some longer time do respond during the week but feel free to post here any day about whatever might be on your mind, I am always glad to hear from you.
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@redmark
Hi sweet redmark 
How are you feeling today?
Mmm. My day has started ok, but I have barely slept in the last couple of days and it is taking its toll on me. I am tired and nervous. Plus hormonal. Not a very great mix! All my dear friends - anger, shame, guilt - are here with me obviously. I am trying to imagining them as live creatures... I guess I could throw a party!
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it?
It has been a strange week. Some very difficult and challenging days, some surprises too. I have been able to tell my therapist something that had been bothering me for a long time, and this made me proud.
What is your favourite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately?
I wouldn't say it's my favourite, as I have been practising it for ten days only, but I like it a lot. I paint pebbles, then I release them somewhere in the nature, hoping they will be found and make someone smile.
Hey there @admaiorasemper *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
That sounds tough. I know that the lack of sleep can make it really hard to deal with all those feelings and just keep them under controls and I can imagine hormones do not help either. I do hope that you will be able to catch on sleep soon and, until then, if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you. You are not alone in this. :)
yay! That sure sounds like a big step that you have been able to share such a big thing with your therapist. I do have a lot of things bottled up as well and I think it is definitely something to be proud of - I am really proud of you as well for making such a big step. :)
Actually, that sounds really nice to paint those pebbles and then just leave them out in the nature for others to find. I am really happy to hear that you do enjoy it too! :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Hugs are always welcomed :)
I'm alright, not really, but I can say I am when I'm not eh :')
I relapsed Monday, however, this week has been pretty tough and since, I've been clean which is something 
Netflix is my facourite self care lol, I do it daily hehe
Thank you for the check-in! @redmark
Hey there @Littleblu *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
We are really glad to have you here with us!
Oh, I am really proud of you for being clean for almost a week now even though you have had such a tough week. You are doing a really amazing job. I do hope you will be able to have a break this weekend and recharge a little bit. I mean, Netflix definitely sounds like a good way to just recharge and probably get lost in some good series or a movie. :)
Do you have any favourites? :)
Stay awesome!
*hugs* Thank you, it means a lot. I dooo, I love horror movies aha, but at the moment, my favourite series is Suits @redmark
@Littleblu
I am a Netflix addicted, will definetely check that series :)
I am currently watching Marcella
@redmark Hey how are you? Always got a kick out of this cartoon.
Anxiety is an issue today. Kind of down at the same time. Really have a hard time finding words - for pretty much anything. Tired
It's been an up - down type of week. Trying to work through some issues with a few things.
Haven't been doing as well with sef care lately as I should be.
Hope you have a good weekend - take care
Hey there @mytwistedsoul *offering safe hugs* (just in case, no pressure)
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Thank you, I return to this comic every once in a while, I just love puns but I am glad to hear that I am not the only one :)
Anxiety can sure be really tough and just leave you drained at the end of the day. I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard day and week, I want you to know that you are not alone in this and if there is anything we may be able to help you with or anything you would like so share we are always here for you :)
I do hope that you will be able to just recharge and relax a little bit this weekend either way :)
You know, I do know it as well when you just do not know how to put what you are feeling and thinking into words. I still have a hard time dealing with it sometimes and it is totally okay if you are not sure how to put things into words at times and it is okay to take as much time with it as you may need. There is no hurry, take it one step at a time and if there is anything we may be able to help you with you are not alone in this. :)
Also, any songs? :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Hey I hope you're having a good weekend.
Anxiety always seems to make it hard to talk to people. Always worried about being a pita and taking up people's time. I know a lot of people say I'm not but there's the anxiety again saying that everyone is just being nice and polite. It's hard to push past that sometimes.
Song - Killswitch Engage - I am Broken too
My Ending Reign - The Devil Inside
@mytwistedsoul Oh, yep, that annoying voice that is saying to you that they are just saying that they enjoy your company out of some sort of kindness. I do have that a lot as well. I am not exactly sure what to really do with it either, with one close friend of mine we do have a system in place tho which is just that I can simply as anytime if I am a bother and they will answer honestly. I mean, I can imagine I can be annoying because when I am anxious I tend to ask it a lot just to make sure but for some reason they are still sticking with me :)
With that said, I know your anxiety may say otherwise, and it is okay, but I do promise you that this is the thruth that I do really enjoy your company and I am always happy to hear from you. No pressure tho. :)
That new Killswitch Engage song is pretty awesome. I have been following that band for a good while now. They have a pretty unique touch on this kind of melancholic but still somehow hopeful and heavy thing. I mean, I definitely thing they are an amazing band. They and Amity Affliction the only two bands who can do that for me that well :)
Also, the other song is really nice as well, I do absolutely love the slow part, it is just making it so much more powerful :)
You do really listen to some pretty awesome music ^-^
@redmark
Hey, How are you doing?
How are you feeling today? :)
I am struggling a bit, and using some unhealthy methods to cope with it. Kind of giving into my thoughts and emotions, even though I know that I shouldn't be. Self-harm is starting to become a problem for me again; I am very ashamed of that and scared to where it will lead. :(
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
It has been a very challenging week. I am very overwhelmed by my Uni work, and so many other things, and just really wanting to give up on everything.
What is your favourite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately? :)
Playing music. I have listened to a lot of music, but I haven't been able to practice playing it. Which isn't good because I have a competition coming up and I cannot play the music. Just another opportunity to be a let down for people and make the rest of the band fail because of my uselessness.
Hey there @ElephantTiger1 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
You know I do not think it is anything to be ashamed of. I know that the urge to self-harm can be really strong but I am actually proud of you. Sharing this had to be hard, coming here and opening up to strangers here. Also, I know that relapsing is hard and can be a slippery slope at times but you know what, you have already proven that you can do this, you can go without SH. You have been able get things under control and I do believe in you. You can do it again and we all are here for you to help you get through this. :)
I am wondering if your university may have a counsellor? I mean, university work can sure be tough and leave you drained and just stressed out and it is totally understandable that it might be hard on you but usually universities have some sort of counselling service in place to help people through it.
Of course, no pressure on you, I know that reaching out for help is hard and scary but I want you to know that you do definitely deserve all the help, support, care, and love to help you get through this :)
Hey, I know that when you are a place like this, mentally it can be really hard but you are definitely not a let down and not useless. I mean, in the first place, you are part of the band because you are talented and you are hard working and you have already put so much effort into your music. I mean, we all have our downfalls, we all make mistakes, fall behind but it cannot take away all that amazing work you have already done. I mean, you might be struggling right now but that does not change that you are an amazing person. I mean, it is okay to take a break, it is okay to ask for help, it is okay to tell that you just cannot do it right now. :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Hey, thanks for your kind words, I appreciate it.
I might see a counsellor at uni at one point, I am just working on being a bit more open at the moment and letting people in; that in itself feels like an impossible task and it is honestly not going very well. But I do hope that things begin to look up for me, how I need things to get better. Sometimes it feels like I have reached my limit when the rain is heavy, but it just continues to get heavier and storm.
I hope you have a beautiful week. You're amazing!
@ElephantTiger1 Well, you have reached out to us here so I would say that you are doing a really great job :)
I mean, I know that opening up and reaching out to people can be really, really tough and there is absolutely no pressure on you, just take your time, one step at a time but here you are not alone, you do not have to weather this storm on your own. You do deserve all the help, support, care, and love coming your way if and when you may feel ready for it :)
Just take it one step at a time now and you can get through this - we can get through this. I believe in you.
One week without selfharming :)
Hey there @GettingUp *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
yay! One week without SH is really awesome, I am really proud of you for reaching such a milestone! :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Thank you for the hug *HUGS BACK* and thank you for being nice as well :)
July 26th
How are you feeling today? :)
Im alright, tired and have a lot of stuff to do.
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
This week has been awful. Struggling a lot with body image and self esteem. I havent been doing healthy things.
What is your favourite self-care activity? Have you got to practice it lately? :)
I don't have any which probably isnt a good thing. I havent found anything that works for me.
Hey there @Love4All525 *hugs* (if you are okay with it)
It is really nice to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a busy and hard week. I konw it can be especially tough when you are already feeling down. I do hope that you will be able to catch a break this weekend for yourself. I mean, really just little things can amount for a lot. Making sure you get enough sleep, eating healthy, going for a walk in the fresh air, every single little thing counts towards self-care :)
Of course, I understand it can be really tough sometimes but I want you to know that you are not alone in this and if there is anything we may be able to help you with or you would like to just share anything and vent a little bit we all are here for you. I believe in you. :)
Stay awesome!