Relapsed today.
Felt fine all day. The thought just found it's way into my head while the activity I was doing lulled me into that dreamlike state that happens when you watch TV or are just focused on a task. Won't describe the act. I know recovery is touch and go, but I'm just tired of abusing myself in this manner. Brain just has kept up this steady thought process about how it feels good to be in pain. Do pain. Con artist. Stupid freaking wiring. There is more I'd love to articulate, but at five percent battery, it's gonna have to wait.
Also, hope everyone is doing decent. It's tough. So if you need a bitchin' buddy shoot me a pm
@Mabari
Stay stong, don't let this bring you down.Tomorrow is another day. Hold on to that thought. P.S there are on call listeners for self harm, might want to reach out to one of them when in such a state, it severes as a distraction, help the urge pass if not much.