a poem

i wrote a poem i guess...

I'm not scared, just numb

Numb from feeling, Done with it all

Some say I'm just dumb 

But that's not it at all

Voices are loud, but my head is louder

That void feeling is taking over

It's over, I surrender 

But it's as if I can't, like I'm some poser

They say to talk about it, but how will that make it better?

Why can't I bury it? For forever

But that won't work, I’m my own tormenter

And that means it won't ever be over

I can't stop the feeling 

The crimson lines keep appearing as if by magic

But I can't keep going

Next thing you know, the news reports will be tragic

My smile hides the truth

My mouth lies 

Like no one can see the myth

As if the words aren't cries

Is it real? Or am I just faking?

Trying to be something im not

But can't you see I'm trying?

It's just a thought