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Hi everyone I'm new to this app and I have a problem I need to talk about but i have no one to listen to me. I'm su-ic-id-al and i have no money to go and see a therapist, I'm starting to seriously think about dr-in-ki-ng b-le-ac-h and en-di-ng my li-fe because I'm suffering a lot, my future doesn't seem to be bright either and the only thing that makes my breathe till this day is my future, but after considering all the possibility of my getting out of my extremely hostile family home, all roads are blocked. If i genuinely need to get out i need to get married becuase my parents would never allow me to have my own house, if I'm gonna get married I'm afraid I'm gonna become a literal slave to my husband becuase I'm living in a extremely patriarchal society. If i d-i-e will genuinely get rid of all those problems, no more cr-yi-ng myself to sleep, no more st-re+ss, no more ab-u-se, no more worrying about my not-so-bright future. Everything will e-n-d and i will be genuinely relieved.

Please for anyone who's reading this i need someone to talk to, I'm feeling stuck I really don't know what to do.