I am struggling

This is my first time reaching out so i am not sure what to say but i am going to try.

I have been feeling so bad today i havent even stood up. My room is a mess and I just lay in it. Even when i try to stand up i cant. I am 13 days clean but tonight my urges are back. I try everything like breathing and distracting myself but it doesn't work. I was just thinking i should say something cause I feel really alone and thought maybe someone could give me some advice.