I just need to share this

Hello everyone, I guess.. I'm kind of new here and it's not completely clear to me yet if anything can help me here, but I just wanted to speak out and I'd be happy to talk to someone about it. in general, today was a simple lazy day at home with my family, I didn't do much, but at the end of the day.. I'm just lying in my bed again and I realize that I want to cut my hands again, even though there wasn't a major fight or anything that upset me a lot today and I was just trying to find an alternative today.. although I'm not really trying to get out of the self farm.. I do not know what is wrong with me. (Also I thought I posted this thread at first but it kinda didn't posted? Idk)