New - A little about me

I started self-harm about 2 months before my birthday I remember becuase I decided I was going to try and stop to be 1 month clean on my birthday so I had another thing to celebrate.  That didn't last long about 2 weeks later I relapsed. For some backround information I have severe anxiety that has devoloped very fast thoughout the last 3 or 4 years.  I have eco-anxiety along with many many anxiety and panic attacks.  I also have divorced parents and so that means 4 parents who do not care about me.  I was trying to find ways to cope with all my problems and started scratching my arm and that turned into cutting.  I have scars left over and I've been trying to hide them from my mother just knowing that if she found out I would be yelled at and god knows what would happen to me.  I feel very alone in this becuase I don't have anyone I can tell that would understand.  My 1st set of parents are taking a big toll on my mental health and then ranting to me about my 2nd set of parents.  I just felt like I needed to get this out there and out of the way. <3