Scars suck

They're not deep or very pronounced, my entire arm used to look like a barcode. Nobody notices them, or so I hope. Last time was two months ago. Felt good, kicked my panic attacks for a bit because I was able to focus on the pain. It only lasted so long before it didn't work anymore, someone saw the red tally marks and I got embarrassed.

Havent done it since, sometimes I think about it, like now. I'm just here hoping talking about it will be a better and less scarlet drenched outlet.