Tw: self harm thoughts (also hi, I'm new to this)
Hello.. i just kind of wanted to talk of some thoughts i have regarding sh that sometimes make me feel like I'm a really weird person..
So.. i have friends who have also struggled with sh and i happened to see their scars sometimes and i don't know why i started feeling a bit angry at myself for not going deep enough to leave scars like that.. i don't really know why i thought about that but it made me feel like i was sounding insane and weird for thinking that.. but i do sometimes wish i could go deeper for some reason even though i know i shouldn't..
Idk.. I'm just confused with myself sometimes..
@yippiee02
Hugs tight honey.(if accepted)
It must be real tough to feel like this (actually, I can relate; I'm also a sh warrior and the cuts are ...)
I wants you to know that everything is not your fault and that I 'm here for you.
Would you like to tell me more about it?
Thank you! But i don't really know if i want to talk about it right now
@yippiee02
Ok fr. I'm always here for you. Love you
@yippiee02
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It sounds like you're dealing with some really complex emotions and self-reflection. It’s completely understandable to feel confused and conflicted when it comes to self-harm, especially when comparing your experiences with those of others.
Your feelings of anger towards yourself and the desire to have deeper scars might stem from a range of underlying emotions or thoughts. It’s important to recognize that these thoughts do not make you weird or insane; they are simply reflections of the distress you’re experiencing.
Self-harm often brings up a lot of complicated feelings, including comparisons with others and conflicting desires. Feeling like you want to go deeper or seeing others' scars and comparing them to your own can be a way of grappling with the intense emotions you’re dealing with. This can also reflect a need to express or externalize your internal pain in a more visible way.
It’s valuable to acknowledge these feelings without judgment. They’re part of your experience and don’t define who you are. Trying to understand what you’re feeling and why can be a step toward finding healthier ways to cope and manage your emotions.
Your confusion and self-doubt are valid, and it’s okay to have these thoughts without labeling them as wrong. It’s a part of navigating complex emotions and the struggles you’re going through. Remember, your experiences and feelings are important, and it's okay to seek ways to address them in a way that supports your well-being.
Consider this: taking small steps to care for yourself, even in subtle ways, can make a significant difference. Engaging in activities that bring you a sense of calm or joy, or finding moments to simply breathe and be gentle with yourself, can help manage these intense emotions.
Remember, you deserve kindness and care, especially from yourself. Your feelings are important, and taking steps to nurture your well-being can help you find balance and relief.
