I hate being like this
honestly it's getting worse and worse I hate when I do it I hate myself putting myself so low I hate how relationship made me my heart hur.t so bad when he ignores me or when we argue about somethings
I would want to hur-t myself then my heart will feel better how canI stop this I need help I don't want any scars but my hands won't stop
@greenGrapefruit7002
Hello there! It sounds like you have been through a really difficult time up to this point. Relationships can be very stressful when they is fueled by arguments, and when it feels like the other person in the relationship is ignoring you and your feelings. I can understand how this would hurt so much, and you would feel the need to hurt yourself in order to feel better. However, I can sense how much courage you have in your heart, even while it is hurting, because you came on here and shared your story- that is never easy to do, and I am beyond proud of you. Even though it doesn't feel like much, knowing that you want to reach out for help and actually act on that desire really shows so much about your character. You are not alone in this journey towards recovery, and even if the road seems rugged and far-fetched, having those who care and empathize with what you are going through can make such a difference. I hope you will find a sense of belonging and understanding here at 7 Cups, and I wish you the very best on your journey. ❤️