Itching for it

T.W. drugs and cutting

I used to self harm often. It was like a release of built up tension, sadness, anger. I also enjoyed the physical representation of my feelings. It was like my little secret,just for me. It's been years now and the scars are mostly healed and gone but lately, it's all I can think about.

Now as an adult, I don't people to see and ask questions and I don't want my husband to admit me anywhere but God do I want it so bad. I used to self medicine and cut. Now I have nothing to remedy the tension that's been building up for years.