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User Profile: Saibyl
Saibyl October 28th, 2022

I am 30. After 4 years I have relapsed, SH started at age 12, I didn't know how re self regulate my emotions. I received therapy and they helped me understand and gave me tools on how to do it. Except when things got too stressful I used it to help with overflow.


I am 13wks pregnant and my partner and I have been at heads, we have had progress today and a compromise and move forward plan, except yesterday I think, I was so high with overwhelming emotions and feelings, I relapsed, a small superficial section on my wrist.


I am exhausted, he is aware of it and I've asked for no attention to be made on it, I asked for understanding why it happened (I couldn't regulate my chaotic emotions) and that it wasn't his fault, the emotions are mine. And not make it a big deal, less attention, less likely to happen again.


I am worried I will have depression flare ups during pregnancy and post natal depression, I feel like I have failed this child already because of my mental health, I want the child to not experience what I experienced growing up, it's daunting and lonely

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User Profile: CelestialSapphire
CelestialSapphire October 29th, 2022
Hi, @Saibyl I am very sorry that you are going through this tough time :(

Thank you for opening up to us and for sharing a vulnerable side of yourself. I know it takes a lot to open up but this initial step hopefully helps you get ahold of your chaotic emotions.

I also have that tendency, especially as an empath, I feel emotions very strongly even those that aren’t my own. But one thing I learned through the years of my journey that I want to share with you: emotions and thoughts are energies. We need to let them out so they don’t accumulate and start destroying us from within.

Will music help you? There are songs I listen to, one is True Love by Peter Roe. It’s instrumental epic music, nothing too noisy. :)

Does it help you if you talk about your thoughts and emotions with someone? For me, it helps if a partner or a friend does. You can find listeners here (such as myself) to help you process those thoughts and emotions without judgment and in a safe, secure space.

We need to let the energies out because the more they overwhelm us from within, the more they would affect our life on an external level. Our jobs, our relationships, our outlook in life, and even our physical health.

I hope you know you are not alone even if there are times when that feeling dominates others. I hope you know people care about you. Lastly, I hope you know help is available and we are all rooting for you :)
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User Profile: Saibyl
Saibyl OP October 29th, 2022

Thank you for responding,


Music can exaggerat? My feelings, but simply having the opportunity to talk about the situation or feelings that becom overwhelming before I get to the point of being unable to self regulate helps more than anything. I first wish to be listened to, then I can be open to suggestions/ advice etc





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User Profile: CelestialSapphire
CelestialSapphire October 29th, 2022

@Saibyl feel free to send me a message :) just please note the time difference, but I reply as often as I can :) stay strong. We are rooting for you :)

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