(TW) I don't know how to cope
Hi, I've been kind of depressed lately for a few reasons. It's too complicated to list them all. I also have severe anxiety that's getting pretty bad again. I have been getting urges to self-harm recently because I'm in so much emotional pain. I've never done it before and I know it's not good, but everytime I'm overwhelmed the thoughts just pop in my head and it's getting increasingly hard to ignore them. Currently the only thing I do is slap a rubber band on my wrist so it creates welts. They usually disappear, and I know it's probably not good but at least it's not permanent. I really don't know what to do because I'm in so much pain I don't know how to deal with it. Should I tell my therapist about these urges? I don't want to get sent to a mental hospital. I have too much I need to do and I don't want my family to worry. I'm so lost.
Things sound really tough for you right now:/ however im super proud of you! your doing really well, the fact that you came on here shows that you really are trying to make progress. Apart from self harm, do you have any other coping methods? maybe some that are safer and healthier? sending my love <3
I'm not sure. I can't see my therapist for another few weeks, and I don't normally deal with depression. It's a kind of pain i've never felt before and I don't know how to process it, and my friends don't know how to help. No matter what I do it still hurts. So my brain is telling me to hurt myself to distract from the emotional pain. I just dont know what to do.
I have a similar situation.. and I am just seeing how I react to things .. but I tend to watch funny or interesting videos on YouTube or Reddit