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I'm not doing well. I've been feeling so depressed and stressed and just... hating myself and everything about the fact that I even exist in the first place. And it makes it so every morning when i wake up i have the urge to self harm. like a month ago i relapsed and gave myself welts and bruises. i wake up and its just such a serious urge to do more. every day. and it makes it hard to focus on anything else. the thought is just so overwhelming. i wish i didn't have these thoughts or urges.
@pandaprincess9 that sounds very distressing.
Have you tried sharing the overwhelming feelings with a therapist or Listener?
When I start feeling taken over by dark urges I find it's good to reach out - you could also try a crisis line or chat and see what f that helps you in the moment.
Something within you is really wanting to be seen and heard, hope you can express it in ways which do not harm your good self
Im not fully sure why i am writing here, but anyway, i am struggling do bad, i need to sh but can because i have no tools, i ended up in hospital after my last sh and it was to say the least a horrible experience, but the urges to cut are always there, especially in the night/early hours of the morning, im really struggling with this rn, but have no ome to turn to. I get triggered so easily, even the mention of it brings me to that darl mindset, i dont know how to escape...
It can be very overwhelming to deal with the thoughts of self harm. You are not alone. One day these thoughts will fade and you will be glad you go through such a low point in your life. That's something to looks forward to. I'm sending hugs and cookies to you for an amazing mental health journey.
