i cant do this
i think about self harm so much and i want to do it so badly but i can’t and it’s making me very anxious
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I would go to an emergency room where there is a psychiatric ward.
@sensibleMelon3654
those places literally torture u lmao
@wallmartfishingrod
Hello,
3 years ago I had suicidal idiation very often with bad anxiety, I used to get a lot of relief just talking to the suicide hotline for 45 minutes or so and at times this was daily but they convinced me to go to the emergency room at the hospital and I did stay there for 11 days. I remember the other patients quickly became like my family, it lead to iop (intensive out patient) for the following 6 weeks and then I finally met a person who helped me at social services, and they hooked me up with a new place to live for veterans, I got a couple counselors, got on a lot of meds and now fast fwd three years and I am in affordable housing in a newer complex, I have my VA benefits now and also have a little routine and sense of purpose. Those are all things I prayed for and I feel blessed daily now. I haven't had an anxiety attack in about 4 months. I got my medical marijuana license and I relax more easily now. I've learned to trust again and have just the most wonderful kind therapist you could ever meet. We fast became very good friends and I adore her with all my heart. I tell you all of this because I remember how bad it was and I couldn't see any end in sight but the day I got out of my own way and was open to new theories, and was willing to put in the work to try to understand what was happening. Grounding techniques really do help you defeat anxiety, and having a trusting close friend in important, you have to learn to be a great friend in order to have a great friend. Just tag me by adding @juiak1968 to your post and I'll respond. Have a good holiday and don't hesitate calling the hotline for support and get a few listeners on 7cups. 7cups was very important to me for the past couple years and I found it just in time. My favorite listener is @jennysunrise8, and I highly recommend you tag her and you will find a great friend who reaches deep to help us when we are in need. my friends on 7cups call me Day :-) You made the right first step to getting helped and in the journey towards healing and peace. Be sure to take really good care of yourself!!~
Blessings, Day
Blessings, Day
@wallmartfishingrod
Hi again, I'd like to share a poem with you that will give you a bit of insight to what I was learning while I was struggling.
juliak1968
PERCEPTION
Perceiving
what we believe in is deceiving and has no meaning as life's
mistreating dishes out this beating leaving us bleeding..... But we cant
see it if we close our minds, and we cant think about this when we're
blind, so walk away and you will find, a friend here waiting for a sign!
So take your time and organize whats on your mind and you'll find
you're not really behind, so relax your eyes and realize you're fine
just the way you are. And you can reach for the stars, put cream on the
scars and healing transpires. The delusional parts only confuse our
goals and corrupt our souls leaving us with a heart full of holes. Set
goals now and your mind will see what closed eyes have failed to
believe, don't let sight deceive keeping us on our knees; throwing logic
into the breeze. Winds at your back excited, Winds of hope reignited
me. Step by step confide so we can share secrets of life thinking "what
could be" If we let it, if you hold back you'll regret it.
There, Now I've gone and said it!
We
hold ourselves down; Dirty on the ground I've found myself tormented
and bound by invisibility. I've ignored all possibility, so I must set
myself free of a self-inflicted confined mystery that causes so much
mind-bending misery
@wallmartfishingrod I know how you feel I can’t resist
