trigger warning + help
pls read at your own discretion ‼️
there must be something terribly wrong with me. i just can’t stop having these thoughts and urges that i know, are, very harmful.
i’ve been trying to get myself hospitalized for a while now and i can’t stop. i tried a lot of things and the most recent thing i did was to overdose on meds and alcohol. it didn’t work, though. idk this feels weird. i want to d word but the same time i kinda don’t want to???? YET anyway. i can’t explain it.
i just want to get hospitalized but not d** yet. but this doesn’t mean that thoughts of sui*c*d* go away. i’m still planning on doing it, not now, but in 5 year’s time (i think). once i get sick of living. but if i did d** in my attempt to hospitalize myself, then, i don’t mind either. guess i was just really meant to f*cking d**
i don’t know what to do anymore. pls help.
@wormbloke I get these same urges sometimes, but mainly from medication that makes my feelings and thoughts worse. If you are taking anything for depression, or anxiety or anything like that it might be the cause or what's making it worse. Try talking to your doctor or try finding a therapist near you to talk to. No one wants you to go and the world will be sad and darker without you. Remember you are the sunshine on even the most cloudiest of days even if you don't know it or don't feel like it. You could be brightening someone's day and not even know, like a friend or family member. I try to reach out to friends when I feel that way but here is great too to try to get your mind off things. But there might be something more going on in your head that you don't know of so it's best to talk to a therapist who can probably figure out what's going on and what is best to help you