tw// feeling guilty
ive been clean since january 2019 and im at a point in my recovery where the thought of actively harming myself scares me a bit. for some reason this fear makes me feel like im not sick enough and that im a coward. i feel so guilty.
@amusingSail8830 you are quite the opposite of a coward. you are brave for working to overcome something very difficult.
@amusingSail8830
Hi there !
Congrats on being clean for so long !! Staying clean for such a long period just goes to show how strong you are !
I'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time with thoughts related to SH. What do you find scary exactly ? And there's no such thing as not being sick enough. You are you and your emotions are valid. Sometimes we tend to compare ourselves to others and, sure there are people that are in worse situations and some people who are doing better but at the end of the day, your journey through recovery is yours. It is unique. You seem to be a strong soul (far from a coward) and I'm sorry to hear that you feel guilty. That's an emotion that's hard to shake off. Hang in there, reach out for help if you want to share your thoughts, we're here for you ! Take care <3
