tw// self-harm and why i do it
i honestly don't know how i started or where i got the idea, but i just did. and i think initially i did it because i liked the idea of feeling some sort of relief. after a few days thought i really did start feeling something. sometimes i knew i was filled with so much pain but i couldn't feel anything. i just felt so numb and all i wanted was to feel something even if it was physical. and it helped. in so many ways. and for people on the outside, for people that don't do it, it looks like a big deal. honestly i don't see it as a big deal anymore. it just feels like it is what it is and it helps. and not a lot of things help.
@whatliesbeneath
Hey !
@Slizzy564 i can think of things that distract me but distraction doesn't last.
@Slizzy564 also i just want to say, thank you so much for your message, it truly means a lot.
@whatliesbeneath
You're welcome, if it helped even a little bit then I'm happy :)
And yeah distractions don't last for long, trust me I know about it. In fact I find it hard to "trick" myself into being distracted. Recently I've trying to identify the actual reason for my SH and trying to work on that instead. Maybe it could be something that could work for you .. ? Everyone goes through their own experience with SH, as the experience is very personal, you have to find what works for you (if you're willing to stop of course).
I specialise I'm self harm if anyone needs a chat :)))
@calmingSummer000 will message you if i need to!
