I really feel like relapsing
Ive been clean for 10 months now and usually the urges are there like an itch or low hum but now its all I can think about. School has been so incredibly overwhelming . I was moved from my normal high school to a different school just today and I havent been able to cope. I feel pathetic for even needing to be moved and just wish I didnt feel I needed to SH to feel better or in control.
@Mebri
Hi Mebri, welcome here! I am glad you have joined us and I hope you will find you all the support you deserve. I am offering you a safe hug if you are ok with it.
I am proud of you for beling clean for such a long time, it is indeed an amazing achievement. And I proud of you for reaching out for help and writing here. Both things shows your inner strenght, you know?
I understand how difficult and perhaps disappointing it is to be in a new school. I would really encourge you not to be that harsh towards yourself... I know it is very difficult, I know we may have that voice in our head that says nasty things to us, but you are not pathetic, nor for being moved there, nor for thinking of SH again. SH is a coping mechanism that helps us to manage overwhelming emotions. It is unhealthy, but it is not pathetic.
I am here to listen to you anytime. You are not alone.
@admaiorasemper, thank you hearing that really helped, but I think I
@Mebri
hello there. School can be really frustrating, trust me I have been there. Don't be mad at yourself for the feelings you have. Sometimes when we are overwhelmed we can't think straight and use unhealthy coping skills. I'm glad you are reaching out. You should go to the resource page and look at the links to healthy coping skills and getting through the urge. I know it may seem impossible, but I know you can do it <3
@SnailPurple thank you so much, Im feeling a lot better since then so no worries
@Mebri
I am happy to read you are feeling better!
@Mebri
I'm so happy you feel better <3
If you ever need anything please feel free to reach out, we are here for you <3
