My story (trigger warning) x

Hey guys. I just wanted to share my story. Basically, Im actually working in the mental health services. But Ive struggled with cutting since I was about 13.. I had a relapse of my mental health about 2 weeks ago, so I have not been able to work. The urge to cut for me usually comes in waves. This time its constantly there. Im doing much better now but its still there, every time something goes wrong I just want to cut. My boyfriend says if I do cut, hes bringing me straight to hospital, which I have never had someone threaten to do before. So that threat seems to be keeping me clean because I wont be able to hide it from him. I fantasise about it tho still. I hope my story hasnt upset anyone.