Tendencies for self harm
Rant.
Hi, there. So, recently, or well, this has happened before too, I feel like strong urges to self-harm. I've never actually done it, but I have been close. I notice that this usually happens when I'm at my lowest otherwise I dont really feel so. The first time happened after my first breakup i was struggling with trauma of molestation by a family member that happened years back and I was alone in my room, my roommate was home and I felt this urge but I didn't do it. This was like a year back. Now I feel like doing jt again during lockdown whenever I'm close to a panic attack or my feelings get thr best of me and I feel so overwhelmed and paranoid and overthink . Has anyone ever gone through just tendencies and if so, what did u do to not self-harm at all? Or if u have and recovered what made u stop? I dont think I would ever self-harm but ik if I'm at a low point I may. I dont want any chances to be there and all.
Thanks for any responses that come to this rant.
*edited by forum mentor @rebecca947 to edit triggering content*
Hello @goldenmoon7
I used to have a self-harm addiction. When I was in the process of quitting, I found that going to therapy and practicing mindfulness helped me work through the urges. There are many ways to work through these urges though! The Self-Harm Recovery subcommunity has a spreadsheet with a huge list of ways to cope. We can also discuss coping skills together if you would like :)
@goldenmoon7
Hello. Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. It can be difficult to share something this intense with complete strangers. Hence, I appreciate your courage. You are brave, more than what you think. To answer your questions yes I have had many urges to self-harm. It is mainly because of my low self-esteem. But improving on it helped me a great deal.