Hi, everyone (possible TW, please be safe)

So... I recently came back to 7cups after a long hiatus. I SHed off and on for about two years and was a year clean. About a month back, I slipped without meaning to and now the thoughts are back at full strength:(

I feel like I let everyone down after it happened. I still do. It was a good day that day. Maybe I was just tired, I dunno... Well, here's to hopefully another year of being clean. I hope everyone else is faring better :)