Kinda lost?

Not sure where to start, these days I've been feeling like I'm loosing my mind, i suffer from S.A.D (Seasonal affective disorder) and anxiety, I've been having so many wrong ideas of what life and d.eath are maybe because it's my tiredness talking by me, or my fear. Sometimes I'm puking my feelings in front of complete strangers and I'm thankful for all the support but i don't how to explain that right now i feel like i'm living under a tree, covered in dirt and roots, feeling cold and trapped and even hearing the pressure of earth above my body and invading my ears and it's so difficult to me to focus and ask for help....i found this app thanks to my blog in Tumblr. You can call me Rebel (that's mi nickname since I was a little girl)