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Hi everyone. My name is Cassandra and Im 28 years old. Ive self-harmed in one way or another since about 7th grade. I used to kind of kill two birds with one stone when i was losing my fight with anorexia. The pain it caused my body and the over-exercising not only helped my body dysmorphia but calmed my self-harm needs. Ive also been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and PTSD fairly recently. Shortly after high school I started to purposefully hurt myself by hitting walls, my car, anything that could leave a deep, long-lasting bruise. Years later my mom died and that situation led to my PTSD diagnoses and an increase in anxiety and self-harm. I started to actually cut my arm and hand to find a better release. I still cant get the cutting under control, I now have spurts of anorexic tendencies followed by shame and comfort eating, my anxiety is more controlled than it was say a month ago, but my depression is still bad and I dont know how to pull my soul back together from all the shattered pieces.