hello

my name is natalie and i relapsed two weeks ago, and it's hard to stop now. For me it was always a roller coaster, i started at very young age and was sh for couple of years, i tried stop at some points back then but it didn't work and then i stopped all of sudden and was clean for some time but then it came back, it was always like one time and then i didn't do it for weeks even months and then i did it again and like that it was for two years i think. but now i can't stop but i want to i really want to.